Tuesday, June 24, 2014
Moments with the Mullers: Prolly more about VBS than about WLS this week.......
Moments with the Mullers: Prolly more about VBS than about WLS this week.......: Let's start this out right! Pounds Lost Last Week: 3 Pounds Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 72 Pounds Overall Weight Loss: 114 ...
Prolly more about VBS than about WLS this week.....
Let's start this out right!
Pounds Lost Last Week: 3 Pounds
Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 72 Pounds
Overall Weight Loss: 114 Pounds
Another sucessfull WLS week!
This week the main focus is Vacation Bible School. I LOVE VBS! It's a great time and can impact so many kids, youth and adults. This might sound a little cheesy, but children are the future especially of our church. It really does make me sad that I look around and there's not any young adults around to help lead. We have to focus on the kids or our churches are going to die.
We have a team from Louisiana come in and let me just say, they are an absolutely amazing! The way they work and love "my" church kids, is so beautiful and inspiring. It makes me love them a little more because those church kids are my kids and I really do love them sooo much. Mrs. Diane does such a great job with her group.
Food hasn't really been a challenge. I am a little bummed that I cannot eat some of Mrs. Donna's amazing cooking. I really wanted some of her dressing, cheesy potatoes, roast beef and mashed potatoes. I feel a little guilty too because I'm bringing my own meals. I know I look a little rude or uppity, but I swear I don't mean it. I just want to stay on the right track and be as healthy as possible. I did make a dessert that as soon as soon as people read "Sugar Free, Grain Free, Low Fat, Chocolate Goodie" they turned their nose and said "too healthy for me." But I kid you not peeps, there was not a drop of this dessert left. So, it must have been good. The recipe is at the bottom of the blog for your enjoyment. Please keep in mind, I kinda just made it up as I went along.
Energy IS a challenge. It's only Tuesday, and I'm exhausted. My body just got used to working a full day plus 30 extra minutes at the gym. This week, I'm asking my body to give me four extra hours of energy. My body is not compromising. My poor husband worries about me way to much. Tonight at church there was almost a fainting moment. This poor guy probably almost faints when I get like this, but tonight it was especially funny because Michael Andrew is there and has not seen me go into that kind of moment. For the record, I didn't faint. I just got a little weak and dizzy. I AM eating. I AM taking my meds. I AM getting in my liquids. It's an energy challenge. I'm working on it.
What is really keeping me going is God. He is wonderful and is working in our church. He is really the center of all this work. He is working in the hearts of these kiddos and it's very evident. We had 108 tonight. We average about 25 on Sunday monring so 108 is nothing but God's work.
So, for this week, I'm asking for prayers for VBS. I pray for strength of the team, the teachers, the leaders, Papa and our church. Prayers for my strength. But most importantly, pray that God moves in the hearts of these young ones and their families.
As promised the recipe:
1. Preheat oven to 350
2. Take a bag of slivered almonds (the $3.48 bag. I have no idea what oz and size that is), 4 squirts of Skinny Girl Stevia, a half of stick of melted butter.
3. Spread almond mixture in the bottom of the 9x13 pan.
4. Drizzle Sugar Free Honey across the almonds.
5. Bake for 30 minutes
6. Cool Completely
7. Take 2 packages of cream cheese, 1 c. Splenda, 2 tblpn sugar free honey, vanilla extract (I can't tell you how much because I don't measure my vanilla). Mix until well mixed.
8. Spread "cheesecake" mixture over cooled almond crust.
9. Make chocolate pudding according to directions. Let it set up accordingly.
10. Spread chocolate over the cheesecake mixture.
11. Top with light cool whip.
12. Tell everyone it's a healthy dessert so you can have more for yourself.
Happy reading!
Pounds Lost Last Week: 3 Pounds
Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 72 Pounds
Overall Weight Loss: 114 Pounds
Another sucessfull WLS week!
This week the main focus is Vacation Bible School. I LOVE VBS! It's a great time and can impact so many kids, youth and adults. This might sound a little cheesy, but children are the future especially of our church. It really does make me sad that I look around and there's not any young adults around to help lead. We have to focus on the kids or our churches are going to die.
We have a team from Louisiana come in and let me just say, they are an absolutely amazing! The way they work and love "my" church kids, is so beautiful and inspiring. It makes me love them a little more because those church kids are my kids and I really do love them sooo much. Mrs. Diane does such a great job with her group.
Food hasn't really been a challenge. I am a little bummed that I cannot eat some of Mrs. Donna's amazing cooking. I really wanted some of her dressing, cheesy potatoes, roast beef and mashed potatoes. I feel a little guilty too because I'm bringing my own meals. I know I look a little rude or uppity, but I swear I don't mean it. I just want to stay on the right track and be as healthy as possible. I did make a dessert that as soon as soon as people read "Sugar Free, Grain Free, Low Fat, Chocolate Goodie" they turned their nose and said "too healthy for me." But I kid you not peeps, there was not a drop of this dessert left. So, it must have been good. The recipe is at the bottom of the blog for your enjoyment. Please keep in mind, I kinda just made it up as I went along.
Energy IS a challenge. It's only Tuesday, and I'm exhausted. My body just got used to working a full day plus 30 extra minutes at the gym. This week, I'm asking my body to give me four extra hours of energy. My body is not compromising. My poor husband worries about me way to much. Tonight at church there was almost a fainting moment. This poor guy probably almost faints when I get like this, but tonight it was especially funny because Michael Andrew is there and has not seen me go into that kind of moment. For the record, I didn't faint. I just got a little weak and dizzy. I AM eating. I AM taking my meds. I AM getting in my liquids. It's an energy challenge. I'm working on it.
What is really keeping me going is God. He is wonderful and is working in our church. He is really the center of all this work. He is working in the hearts of these kiddos and it's very evident. We had 108 tonight. We average about 25 on Sunday monring so 108 is nothing but God's work.
So, for this week, I'm asking for prayers for VBS. I pray for strength of the team, the teachers, the leaders, Papa and our church. Prayers for my strength. But most importantly, pray that God moves in the hearts of these young ones and their families.
As promised the recipe:
1. Preheat oven to 350
2. Take a bag of slivered almonds (the $3.48 bag. I have no idea what oz and size that is), 4 squirts of Skinny Girl Stevia, a half of stick of melted butter.
3. Spread almond mixture in the bottom of the 9x13 pan.
4. Drizzle Sugar Free Honey across the almonds.
5. Bake for 30 minutes
6. Cool Completely
7. Take 2 packages of cream cheese, 1 c. Splenda, 2 tblpn sugar free honey, vanilla extract (I can't tell you how much because I don't measure my vanilla). Mix until well mixed.
8. Spread "cheesecake" mixture over cooled almond crust.
9. Make chocolate pudding according to directions. Let it set up accordingly.
10. Spread chocolate over the cheesecake mixture.
11. Top with light cool whip.
12. Tell everyone it's a healthy dessert so you can have more for yourself.
Happy reading!
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Moments with the Mullers: Fertility Specialist & Excercise Expert & Maybe a ...
Moments with the Mullers: Fertility Specialist & Excercise Expert & Maybe a ...: Here ya go! Pounds Lost Last week: 6 Pounds Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 69 Pounds Overall Weight Loss 111 Pounds It was a pr...
Fertility Specialist & Excercise Expert & Maybe a little TMI.....
Here ya go!
Pounds Lost Last week: 6 Pounds
Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 69 Pounds
Overall Weight Loss 111 Pounds
It was a pretty great week!! On Wednesday, we made the trek to OKC for two appointments. The first was to see Dr. Reshef. If you remember correctly, Dr. Reshef is the Fertility Specialist that we love dearly. He also is my OB. It's been about two years since my annual and he wasn't going to refill my birth control until I got my annual. Yuck. But his office is soooo welcoming! His nurse Beverly is absolutely wonderful! I also haven't been there in two years, so of course, being down over 100 pounds made them beam over me. I felt so good about myself that day. She even noticed Johnathan's weight loss. This is what makes her a good nurse. They haven't seen me since August 2012 and she noticed the weight loss! She did a happy dance after I weighed!! Then she takes my blood pressure. It was 108/70!!! That's a pretty flipping amazing BP! And I haven't had one that low in such a long time! So, we go into the room. I'm asked to get undressed and into the patient gown and blah blah blah. Dr. Reshef comes in and is so encouraging about the weight loss. He even stated that together my and Johnathan's weight loss combined (196 Pounds) is an average adult male. It's mind blowing!! So, we all know that one of the topics of discussion was fertility options come January. So, he tells me he wants to do the exam first and then let me get dressed and he'll meet me in his office. He believes that it is harder for a woman to pay attention when she's half naked on the table because all she can think about is being half naked on the table. I really really respect and love Dr. Reshef. This is one of the reasons. He respects me so much and is honest. He is truly everything I want in a physician. I 100% recommend him if you or any of your friends or family are looking for a fertility specialist. Anyways, so the $100 question: What do we do in January??? Well, on January 28th whenever I finish a birth control pack, I'm not ordering another prescription. And we're gonna get down to business in the Muller household!! He said that my body is like a completely new body and we honestly don't know what my body is going to do on its own until we let it. So, he wants me to monitor my body for three months to ensure I have a cycle each month. Then, he recommends trying naturally for three month; however, if I get impatient (he knows me so well) we can make an appointment and start trying. He gave me a sheet for optimizing natural fertility. He also wants me to use temperature charts or ovulation kits to help us along. I am so so so so so so excited about January! It was such a good appointment and if you've read my previous blogs, you know these appointments haven't always gone so well so I'm really excited about my progress.
Next up on the appointment agenda was the VO2 testing. So, VO2 testing makes you put on an oxygen mask and heart monitor and walk on the treadmill. Colby is my Excercise Expert. That's not his actual title; however, I can't remember it and probably wouldn't be able to spell it without Google. Anyway, Colby adjusts the speed and the incline until I was no longer burning fat and only burning carbs. This is a problem because I don't eat many carbs (just from the natural carbs in the cheeses, veggies, beans, etc...). I have a heart rate target that is specific to my body that will allow me to continue to burn fat. This has been the hardest thing for me to wrap my mind around. I've always though when it comes to exercise you push it and go harder and go faster. But I'm not training to be faster or harder. I'm training to be healthy and that includes a healthy heart rate. So, I'm really trying. We are even on the look out for a good heart monitor to help me keep this goal. After we met with Colby, we met with the nutrionist. It's standard to do so to make sure I'm following orders. So, surprise, surprise! I'm not meeting my fluids or taking my calcium supplements. There's a new water bottle and it's called HyrdaCoach and I WANT ONE!! It's a water bottle that tracks water in take and buzzes when you haven't taken a sip in a while. I'm shopping for one!! I also bought some caramel calcium chews and they taste like candy. I've been doing better about water and about the calcium chews. I'm working on meeting all the goals set for me. Not just the ones I like :)
On Saturday, we took the church kids to Robber's Cave State Park. I love Wilburton. I had some of the best times in that small town. I even shared memories with Johnathan about my good ole EOSC days. A quote from the Theatre came to me "Tread lightly upon these hollow boards because some of us have left our hearts upon them." I may not have left my whole heart on that stage, but there is a piece left there that will never be filled again. I miss it. I miss it sooooooo much.
Anyways, we had a fun day. We cooked out and went swimming. It was a little cold for swimming but it was still a beautiful day. I've really come to love being outdoors. The summer breeze was wonderful and so serene. Robber's Cave is beautiful. The kids had a good day and we had a good day. I really do have a blessed life.
It was a good week.
So, prayer requests for this week include that this excitment and motiviation continue. I really am on cloud 9 with all this fertility business and the possiblity that this time next year I could be announcing the gender of a baby. It's my deepest prayer and desire.
Again, thank you for your prayers and encouragment. It is what is keeping me going and keeping this smile on my face that I have right at this very moment.
Happy Reading!
Pounds Lost Last week: 6 Pounds
Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 69 Pounds
Overall Weight Loss 111 Pounds
It was a pretty great week!! On Wednesday, we made the trek to OKC for two appointments. The first was to see Dr. Reshef. If you remember correctly, Dr. Reshef is the Fertility Specialist that we love dearly. He also is my OB. It's been about two years since my annual and he wasn't going to refill my birth control until I got my annual. Yuck. But his office is soooo welcoming! His nurse Beverly is absolutely wonderful! I also haven't been there in two years, so of course, being down over 100 pounds made them beam over me. I felt so good about myself that day. She even noticed Johnathan's weight loss. This is what makes her a good nurse. They haven't seen me since August 2012 and she noticed the weight loss! She did a happy dance after I weighed!! Then she takes my blood pressure. It was 108/70!!! That's a pretty flipping amazing BP! And I haven't had one that low in such a long time! So, we go into the room. I'm asked to get undressed and into the patient gown and blah blah blah. Dr. Reshef comes in and is so encouraging about the weight loss. He even stated that together my and Johnathan's weight loss combined (196 Pounds) is an average adult male. It's mind blowing!! So, we all know that one of the topics of discussion was fertility options come January. So, he tells me he wants to do the exam first and then let me get dressed and he'll meet me in his office. He believes that it is harder for a woman to pay attention when she's half naked on the table because all she can think about is being half naked on the table. I really really respect and love Dr. Reshef. This is one of the reasons. He respects me so much and is honest. He is truly everything I want in a physician. I 100% recommend him if you or any of your friends or family are looking for a fertility specialist. Anyways, so the $100 question: What do we do in January??? Well, on January 28th whenever I finish a birth control pack, I'm not ordering another prescription. And we're gonna get down to business in the Muller household!! He said that my body is like a completely new body and we honestly don't know what my body is going to do on its own until we let it. So, he wants me to monitor my body for three months to ensure I have a cycle each month. Then, he recommends trying naturally for three month; however, if I get impatient (he knows me so well) we can make an appointment and start trying. He gave me a sheet for optimizing natural fertility. He also wants me to use temperature charts or ovulation kits to help us along. I am so so so so so so excited about January! It was such a good appointment and if you've read my previous blogs, you know these appointments haven't always gone so well so I'm really excited about my progress.
Next up on the appointment agenda was the VO2 testing. So, VO2 testing makes you put on an oxygen mask and heart monitor and walk on the treadmill. Colby is my Excercise Expert. That's not his actual title; however, I can't remember it and probably wouldn't be able to spell it without Google. Anyway, Colby adjusts the speed and the incline until I was no longer burning fat and only burning carbs. This is a problem because I don't eat many carbs (just from the natural carbs in the cheeses, veggies, beans, etc...). I have a heart rate target that is specific to my body that will allow me to continue to burn fat. This has been the hardest thing for me to wrap my mind around. I've always though when it comes to exercise you push it and go harder and go faster. But I'm not training to be faster or harder. I'm training to be healthy and that includes a healthy heart rate. So, I'm really trying. We are even on the look out for a good heart monitor to help me keep this goal. After we met with Colby, we met with the nutrionist. It's standard to do so to make sure I'm following orders. So, surprise, surprise! I'm not meeting my fluids or taking my calcium supplements. There's a new water bottle and it's called HyrdaCoach and I WANT ONE!! It's a water bottle that tracks water in take and buzzes when you haven't taken a sip in a while. I'm shopping for one!! I also bought some caramel calcium chews and they taste like candy. I've been doing better about water and about the calcium chews. I'm working on meeting all the goals set for me. Not just the ones I like :)
On Saturday, we took the church kids to Robber's Cave State Park. I love Wilburton. I had some of the best times in that small town. I even shared memories with Johnathan about my good ole EOSC days. A quote from the Theatre came to me "Tread lightly upon these hollow boards because some of us have left our hearts upon them." I may not have left my whole heart on that stage, but there is a piece left there that will never be filled again. I miss it. I miss it sooooooo much.
Anyways, we had a fun day. We cooked out and went swimming. It was a little cold for swimming but it was still a beautiful day. I've really come to love being outdoors. The summer breeze was wonderful and so serene. Robber's Cave is beautiful. The kids had a good day and we had a good day. I really do have a blessed life.
It was a good week.
So, prayer requests for this week include that this excitment and motiviation continue. I really am on cloud 9 with all this fertility business and the possiblity that this time next year I could be announcing the gender of a baby. It's my deepest prayer and desire.
Again, thank you for your prayers and encouragment. It is what is keeping me going and keeping this smile on my face that I have right at this very moment.
Happy Reading!
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Moments with the Mullers: Maybe Last Week was the Motivation that I needed
Moments with the Mullers: Maybe Last Week was the Motivation that I needed: Here ya go!: Pounds Lost Last Week: 4 Pounds Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 63 Pounds Overall Weight Loss: 105 Poun...
Maybe Last Week was the Motivation that I needed
Here ya go!:
Pounds Lost Last Week: 4 Pounds
Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 63 Pounds
Overall Weight Loss: 105 Pounds
You read it right. I lost all of the weight I had gained from the previous weigh-in PLUS one pound! I know it's right because I stepped on the scale 5 times and it said the same weight all five times!
I beyond happy at this point. I was so disappointed last week and was experiencing some major depression issues. It's not a cakewalk people, this is some real stuff. It can be so emotional sometimes and I want to thank each and every one of you for all of your encourage words that you sent my way. They really did help. I just have to learn to be a little more prepared for small hiccups like last week and the depression that follows.
This week I really tried to focus on my liquids and sticking to it. I didn't do very well with those small goals. Liquids are so hard for me to hit 64 ounces. I know it doesn't sound hard, but honestly, I get so busy during the day that I forget to drink my liquids. I love my job and this is one way that I show how much I love it because I get so emmersed in what I'm doing that I forget that I am supposed to have 2 bottles of liquid down by lunch.
I've also been lacking on the beans restriction. You know I'm only supposed to have beans twice a week; however, I've been eating them more. Beans have a carb content that's why I can only have them twice a week, but they taste so flipping good. They are like liquid gold. I've been eating them alone for meals with a little cheese and fat free sour cream. It's what I'm craving more than anything! I'm trying to get back on track with the beans restriction. If there's one thing I've learned about myself it's that I do have some amazing will power!
So, remember when I said I wasn't really having side effects with hair loss?? Well, it's hit. This really does make me a little sad. It's falling out like crazy know. I can pull it out by the fist fulls. I've honestly quit washing and brushing my hair every day because of it. I know I was warned but I really love my hair. My hair and my eyes are the prettiest parts of me. My nails have also gotten brittle and look really bad. I've quit using nail polish because nail polish remover will just make it worse. I've been tempted to get some artificial nails just until I get through this phase, but I'm afraid they will jack up my nails even more. I just have to ride this through until my vitamins and hormone levels stabilize. I currently take Biotin every night before bed. Maybe I should double it up. If you have any advice on this matter, I'd appreciate it!
On a brighter side, I had a fantastic weekend! I spent it celebrating a good friend's bacholorette party. I met three new friends and we had a fabulous time!! We had some interesting conversations that led to a quick trip to Bricktown. We stayed in a wonderful suite at the Residence inn and let the Miss open gifts. I really am happy for her and happy that we've become friends over the last two years. Next, we all began to get ready. Imagine five women with two mirrors and four outlets trying to get dolled up for a night on the town. It basically consisted of straightening irons, curling irons, hair spray, make up, heels, dresses and lots of laughter. Great memories. Then, we walked around Bricktown and decided on Toby Keith's for dinner. I had a porkchop (well about 1/3 of one) with a jalepeno glaze and peach jam. AMAZING! After that we took a tour on the water taxi down the river or canal or whatever it's called. That was a fun time except the driver was kind of a D Bag and mean to these little boys on the taxi. Then, we had a night on the town. Did a little dancing, almost got into a fight and truly enjoyed ourselves and made some pretty awesome memories. I'm so glad that I was invited. I had such a great time and needed that time with just girls. I don't get it very often. We returned to the hotel at about 1am. That was nice. Talked a little and turned in. The next morning we got up, packed and relived the night and had a few more laughs. One thing I learned is that it's a little harder to hang with dancing and 1am turn ins now than when I was in my early 20s....getting old is for the birds.
Tomorrow, I return to OKC for two doctor's appointments. The first is at Dr. Reshef's the infertility specialist. Now, before you start your eyebrow raising, that's not why we're going. Johnathan wouldn't hear of it until I get clearance from Dr. B the bariatric surgeon. I'm going because I'm almost out of birth control and because Dr. Reshef is a wonderful attentive physician, he won't refill until I get an annual and us women know how much we LOVE these appointments (insert eyeroll here). I do have some questions for him though such as in January, when we can start trying again, does he want me to wait a few months to make an appointment or make an appointment right away? I'm ready now, but my body isn't. I've waited long enough and come January, I'm going to be ready to hit the ground running. The second appointment is the VO2 testing at Dr. B's. This will give them an idea about my oxygen levels and a safe heart rate for exercising. Then I will really start pushing the exercising again. I miss going to the gym and I'm ready to get back in it.
So, prayers for this week are for good news at the appointments and patience with myself and with my body. I feel much better this week and it's mainly because I have all of you praying for me and sending me encourage words. You have no idea what they mean to me. Thank you so so much for your support.
Happy Reading!
Pounds Lost Last Week: 4 Pounds
Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 63 Pounds
Overall Weight Loss: 105 Pounds
You read it right. I lost all of the weight I had gained from the previous weigh-in PLUS one pound! I know it's right because I stepped on the scale 5 times and it said the same weight all five times!
I beyond happy at this point. I was so disappointed last week and was experiencing some major depression issues. It's not a cakewalk people, this is some real stuff. It can be so emotional sometimes and I want to thank each and every one of you for all of your encourage words that you sent my way. They really did help. I just have to learn to be a little more prepared for small hiccups like last week and the depression that follows.
This week I really tried to focus on my liquids and sticking to it. I didn't do very well with those small goals. Liquids are so hard for me to hit 64 ounces. I know it doesn't sound hard, but honestly, I get so busy during the day that I forget to drink my liquids. I love my job and this is one way that I show how much I love it because I get so emmersed in what I'm doing that I forget that I am supposed to have 2 bottles of liquid down by lunch.
I've also been lacking on the beans restriction. You know I'm only supposed to have beans twice a week; however, I've been eating them more. Beans have a carb content that's why I can only have them twice a week, but they taste so flipping good. They are like liquid gold. I've been eating them alone for meals with a little cheese and fat free sour cream. It's what I'm craving more than anything! I'm trying to get back on track with the beans restriction. If there's one thing I've learned about myself it's that I do have some amazing will power!
So, remember when I said I wasn't really having side effects with hair loss?? Well, it's hit. This really does make me a little sad. It's falling out like crazy know. I can pull it out by the fist fulls. I've honestly quit washing and brushing my hair every day because of it. I know I was warned but I really love my hair. My hair and my eyes are the prettiest parts of me. My nails have also gotten brittle and look really bad. I've quit using nail polish because nail polish remover will just make it worse. I've been tempted to get some artificial nails just until I get through this phase, but I'm afraid they will jack up my nails even more. I just have to ride this through until my vitamins and hormone levels stabilize. I currently take Biotin every night before bed. Maybe I should double it up. If you have any advice on this matter, I'd appreciate it!
On a brighter side, I had a fantastic weekend! I spent it celebrating a good friend's bacholorette party. I met three new friends and we had a fabulous time!! We had some interesting conversations that led to a quick trip to Bricktown. We stayed in a wonderful suite at the Residence inn and let the Miss open gifts. I really am happy for her and happy that we've become friends over the last two years. Next, we all began to get ready. Imagine five women with two mirrors and four outlets trying to get dolled up for a night on the town. It basically consisted of straightening irons, curling irons, hair spray, make up, heels, dresses and lots of laughter. Great memories. Then, we walked around Bricktown and decided on Toby Keith's for dinner. I had a porkchop (well about 1/3 of one) with a jalepeno glaze and peach jam. AMAZING! After that we took a tour on the water taxi down the river or canal or whatever it's called. That was a fun time except the driver was kind of a D Bag and mean to these little boys on the taxi. Then, we had a night on the town. Did a little dancing, almost got into a fight and truly enjoyed ourselves and made some pretty awesome memories. I'm so glad that I was invited. I had such a great time and needed that time with just girls. I don't get it very often. We returned to the hotel at about 1am. That was nice. Talked a little and turned in. The next morning we got up, packed and relived the night and had a few more laughs. One thing I learned is that it's a little harder to hang with dancing and 1am turn ins now than when I was in my early 20s....getting old is for the birds.
Tomorrow, I return to OKC for two doctor's appointments. The first is at Dr. Reshef's the infertility specialist. Now, before you start your eyebrow raising, that's not why we're going. Johnathan wouldn't hear of it until I get clearance from Dr. B the bariatric surgeon. I'm going because I'm almost out of birth control and because Dr. Reshef is a wonderful attentive physician, he won't refill until I get an annual and us women know how much we LOVE these appointments (insert eyeroll here). I do have some questions for him though such as in January, when we can start trying again, does he want me to wait a few months to make an appointment or make an appointment right away? I'm ready now, but my body isn't. I've waited long enough and come January, I'm going to be ready to hit the ground running. The second appointment is the VO2 testing at Dr. B's. This will give them an idea about my oxygen levels and a safe heart rate for exercising. Then I will really start pushing the exercising again. I miss going to the gym and I'm ready to get back in it.
So, prayers for this week are for good news at the appointments and patience with myself and with my body. I feel much better this week and it's mainly because I have all of you praying for me and sending me encourage words. You have no idea what they mean to me. Thank you so so much for your support.
Happy Reading!
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Moments with the Mullers: It's okay to wallow in self pity every once in a w...
Moments with the Mullers: It's okay to wallow in self pity every once in a w...: I am completely embarrassed to share this week's weigh in with you. I'm so disappointed in myself and there is really no one to blam...
It's okay to wallow in self pity every once in a while right????
I am completely embarrassed to share this week's weigh in with you. I'm so disappointed in myself and there is really no one to blame but myself. But I planned on being honest so here it's goes....
Pounds lost this week: A gain of 3 pounds
Pounds lost since surgery: 59 pounds
Overall weight loss: 101 pounds
I gained three pounds this week. I'm horribly disapointed in myself and a little discouraged. It really is a horrible feeling to lose every week and then this. I didn't eat the cheeseburger that I wanted or the chicken lasagne in the cafeteria. I didn't eat even one of the Twizler bites in the community candy bowl.
I know this is completely normal to this kind of emotional reaction, but this week it's hit me especially hard. I've been pretty down and I'm having a hard time recovering from this. I miss food. I miss cheeseburgers and hot french fries with ketchup. I miss chocolate cake and ice cream. I miss quesdillas and chips and queso. I miss biscuits and gravy. I MISS STUFFED CRUST PEPPERONI PIZZA! The struggle is real. And believe I know I sound like a fat kid, but just try it. Try to restrict some of the foods that you absolutely love. It's not a walk in the park and I am truly struggling.
I also know that setbacks are completely normal. I just didn't expect it. And I know this is my fault. I'm only supposed to have beans two times a week and I've been craving refriend beans and indulging. I'm not supposed to have the sugar-free candies and I've indulged in that as well. Not gonna lie, I felt like I deserved it. We've been eating out where I'm not monitoring ingredients (like full fat butter, full fat cheeses, non-lean meats, etc...) I've not been going to the gym. I have excuses and that's what they are excuses. I'm too tired and giving work and church all of my focus. I'm letting my health slip and getting back into old habits.
So, you would think this would motivate me to get off my rear and exercise and I had plenty of intentions to get to water aerobics this evening. I'm just so exhausted and to top it off I ran out of vitamins. These are the special vitamins that I buy specifically from the doctor's office. Remember, these were life savers when I had all those issues with fainting. Don't worry about it, I have vitamins and a B12 supplement to get me through until I get back up there next week. They just aren't as effective at overcoming fatigue and giving me energy.
Obviously, tonight I need prayers more than anything. Prayers to get me out of this funk and back on track. This really is hard and while I am wallowing in self-pity, I need some encouragement and God's hand to pull me out of this. This is more than just the 3 pounds gain back. This is about how I'm starting to feel and about how hard this is truly becoming. Some of my dearest friends have told me that I haven't been acting the same. I'm really sorry. This is the reason why and I'm hoping it won't be long until I'm back to the positive, upbeat, Lucy.
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Pounds lost this week: A gain of 3 pounds
Pounds lost since surgery: 59 pounds
Overall weight loss: 101 pounds
I gained three pounds this week. I'm horribly disapointed in myself and a little discouraged. It really is a horrible feeling to lose every week and then this. I didn't eat the cheeseburger that I wanted or the chicken lasagne in the cafeteria. I didn't eat even one of the Twizler bites in the community candy bowl.
I know this is completely normal to this kind of emotional reaction, but this week it's hit me especially hard. I've been pretty down and I'm having a hard time recovering from this. I miss food. I miss cheeseburgers and hot french fries with ketchup. I miss chocolate cake and ice cream. I miss quesdillas and chips and queso. I miss biscuits and gravy. I MISS STUFFED CRUST PEPPERONI PIZZA! The struggle is real. And believe I know I sound like a fat kid, but just try it. Try to restrict some of the foods that you absolutely love. It's not a walk in the park and I am truly struggling.
I also know that setbacks are completely normal. I just didn't expect it. And I know this is my fault. I'm only supposed to have beans two times a week and I've been craving refriend beans and indulging. I'm not supposed to have the sugar-free candies and I've indulged in that as well. Not gonna lie, I felt like I deserved it. We've been eating out where I'm not monitoring ingredients (like full fat butter, full fat cheeses, non-lean meats, etc...) I've not been going to the gym. I have excuses and that's what they are excuses. I'm too tired and giving work and church all of my focus. I'm letting my health slip and getting back into old habits.
So, you would think this would motivate me to get off my rear and exercise and I had plenty of intentions to get to water aerobics this evening. I'm just so exhausted and to top it off I ran out of vitamins. These are the special vitamins that I buy specifically from the doctor's office. Remember, these were life savers when I had all those issues with fainting. Don't worry about it, I have vitamins and a B12 supplement to get me through until I get back up there next week. They just aren't as effective at overcoming fatigue and giving me energy.
Obviously, tonight I need prayers more than anything. Prayers to get me out of this funk and back on track. This really is hard and while I am wallowing in self-pity, I need some encouragement and God's hand to pull me out of this. This is more than just the 3 pounds gain back. This is about how I'm starting to feel and about how hard this is truly becoming. Some of my dearest friends have told me that I haven't been acting the same. I'm really sorry. This is the reason why and I'm hoping it won't be long until I'm back to the positive, upbeat, Lucy.
Happy reading!
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