Maybe Last Week was the Motivation that I needed

Here ya go!:

Pounds Lost Last Week: 4 Pounds
Pounds Lost Since Surgery: 63 Pounds
Overall Weight Loss: 105 Pounds

You read it right. I lost all of the weight I had gained from the previous weigh-in PLUS one pound! I know it's right because I stepped on the scale 5 times and it said the same weight all five times!

I beyond happy at this point. I was so disappointed last week and was experiencing some major depression issues. It's not a cakewalk people, this is some real stuff. It can be so emotional sometimes and I want to thank each and every one of you for all of your encourage words that you sent my way. They really did help. I just have to learn to be a little more prepared for small hiccups like last week and the depression that follows.

This week I really tried to focus on my liquids and sticking to it. I didn't do very well with those small goals. Liquids are so hard for me to hit 64 ounces. I know it doesn't sound hard, but honestly, I get so busy during the day that I forget to drink my liquids. I love my job and this is one way that I show how much I love it because I get so emmersed in what I'm doing that I forget that I am supposed to have 2 bottles of liquid down by lunch.

I've also been lacking on the beans restriction. You know I'm only supposed to have beans twice a week; however, I've been eating them more. Beans have a carb content that's why I can only have them twice a week, but they taste so flipping good. They are like liquid gold. I've been eating them alone for meals with a little cheese and fat free sour cream. It's what I'm craving more than anything! I'm trying to get back on track with the beans restriction. If there's one thing I've learned about myself it's that I do have some amazing will power!

So, remember when I said I wasn't really having side effects with hair loss?? Well, it's hit. This really does make me a little sad. It's falling out like crazy know. I can pull it out by the fist fulls. I've honestly quit washing and brushing my hair every day because of it. I know I was warned but I really love my hair. My hair and my eyes are the prettiest parts of me. My nails have also gotten brittle and look really bad. I've quit using nail polish because nail polish remover will just make it worse. I've been tempted to get some artificial nails just until I get through this phase, but I'm afraid they will jack up my nails even more. I just have to ride this through until my vitamins and hormone levels stabilize. I currently take Biotin every night before bed. Maybe I should double it up. If you have any advice on this matter, I'd appreciate it!

On a brighter side, I had a fantastic weekend! I spent it celebrating a good friend's bacholorette party. I met three new friends and we had a fabulous time!! We had some interesting conversations that led to a quick trip to Bricktown. We stayed in a wonderful suite at the Residence inn and let the Miss open gifts. I really am happy for her and happy that we've become friends over the last two years. Next, we all began to get ready. Imagine five women with two mirrors and four outlets trying to get dolled up for a night on the town. It basically consisted of straightening irons, curling irons, hair spray, make up, heels, dresses and lots of laughter. Great memories. Then, we walked around Bricktown and decided on Toby Keith's for dinner. I had a porkchop (well about 1/3 of one) with a jalepeno glaze and peach jam. AMAZING! After that we took a tour on the water taxi down the river or canal or whatever it's called. That was a fun time except the driver was kind of a D Bag and mean to these little boys on the taxi. Then, we had a night on the town. Did a little dancing, almost got into a fight and truly enjoyed ourselves and made some pretty awesome memories. I'm so glad that I was invited. I had such a great time and needed that time with just girls. I don't get it very often. We returned to the hotel at about 1am. That was nice. Talked a little and turned in. The next morning we got up, packed and relived the night and had a few more laughs. One thing I learned is that it's a little harder to hang with dancing and 1am turn ins now than when I was in my early 20s....getting old is for the birds.

Tomorrow, I return to OKC for two doctor's appointments. The first is at Dr. Reshef's the infertility specialist. Now, before you start your eyebrow raising, that's not why we're going. Johnathan wouldn't hear of it until I get clearance from Dr. B the bariatric surgeon. I'm going because I'm almost out of birth control and because Dr. Reshef is a wonderful attentive physician, he won't refill until I get an annual and us women know how much we LOVE these appointments (insert eyeroll here). I do have some questions for him though such as in January, when we can start trying again, does he want me to wait a few months to make an appointment or make an appointment right away? I'm ready now, but my body isn't. I've waited long enough and come January, I'm going to be ready to hit the ground running. The second appointment is the VO2 testing at Dr. B's. This will give them an idea about my oxygen levels and a safe heart rate for exercising. Then I will really start pushing the exercising again. I miss going to the gym and I'm ready to get back in it.

So, prayers for this week are for good news at the appointments and patience with myself and with my body. I feel much better this week and it's mainly because I have all of you praying for me and sending me encourage words. You have no idea what they mean to me. Thank you so so much for your support.

Happy Reading!