So, this weekend was one of the best weekends I've had in a long time! I'm just going to warn you like before, this blog can contain TMI.
I started my cycle on my own! I'm pretty sure I don't know very many girls who celebrate a "monthly bill," but I always get so excited! It means my body worked the way it should last month and that I was that much closer to getting what my heart desires!
So, the minute it turned 8:00, I called the doctor and the first question she asked about was weight loss. No, I haven't lost anymore and Beverly said that Dr. Reshef would like for me to see if I do it again next month without any medicine. Sounds good to me! My hopes aren't up, but I am proud of myself. Beverly asked what we are doing differently, and honestly the only thing that is different is that my new position is so much less stress. I'm not stressing out every day. Beverly said that actually makes a huge difference and that I should learn to stress less. "Let Go and Let God." It's so much easier to type those five words than it is to actually live it, but I am seriously trying.
So, we are going on our annual anniversary trip and going to enjoy ourselves and then when we come home, it's going to be boot camp and weight watchers to get back on track! I will definetly need prayers and encouragement....
But for now, we are going to get ready for our little mini vacation in the cabin by the lake in the hot tub! Be jealous! And watch Facebook for pictures of the cutest couple in the world: Mr. and Mrs. Johnathan & Lucy Muller :)
We are also going to praise God because what this month proves more than anything is that with God all things are possible!
God Bless You All! And Thanks for stopping by!!!
Monday, February 20, 2012
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Who knew a Facebook Share Could be so Powerful?
I haven't written in a while and was suddenly inspired to tonight.
Wednesday nights are so very hard for me, because of my classroom at church. I have one student who has some serious behaviorial issues that no one not even my Nana or Papa can control. I get so stressed out and frustrated that the task at hand (teaching a Bible lesson) becomes a circus.
Tonight was no different. It was crazy and kids don't listen. I came home with a huge headache and so very stressed out. So, I realize I need to post for school and I had a notice that Dr. Reshef had posted a new video.
<script type='text/javascript' src='http://www.news9.com/global/video/videoplayer.js?rnd=278502;hostDomain=www.news9.com;playerWidth=664;playerHeight=400;isShowIcon=true;clipId=6736781;flvUri=;partnerclipid=;adTag=Sales%2520-%2520WorldNow%252033;advertisingZone=;enableAds=true;landingPage=;islandingPageoverride=false;playerType=STANDARD_EMBEDDEDscript;controlsType=overlay'></script>
if that doesn't work....here is the link.....
http://www.news9.com/category/116601/video-page?autoStart=true&topVideoCatNo=default&clipId=6736781
Anyways, it is about an Oklahoma Weather girl who is battling infertility. I have people who put me down all of the time for battling infertility and PCOS publically since socially, some of the things I blog about is inapproprate to talk about. My answer to that is: Don't read my blog, then.
Anyway, Dr. Reshef is truly amazing and in this video you can really see his compassion and love for his patients. In a way, he has given me the tiniest bit of hope by just posting that video.
Since my last blog, I haven't been dieting or going to the gym. No matter how positive I tried to stay, I couldn't focus. I am so angry that I have to face this and that some of my loved ones have to face this. I am angry that I feel empty and ugly and unwomanly. I am angry that I have to work so hard to lose weight and that my hair is falling out and that I have hair where most women don't have hair. I am angry my arms go empty while literally millions of children are being abused and/or neglected while you are reading this blog. It's not fair.
However, life is not fair. I was not promised a fair life. This video showed me that with a little more hard work and hope and prayer miracles can happen. It also reassured me that I am not alone. I know so many of you are reading this and experiencing the same hurt and anger and confusion that I am and I hope you know you are not alone and I am always here if you need someone to talk/vent/cry to.
My plan is to get back on track with everything that Dr. Reshef has recommended and to get my spiritual life back on track by daily reading and searching for God's plan for my life.
Thank you all for being my sound board, and though I am not sure Dr. Reshef can or is reading this, I really want to thank him for uploading that video on Integris Henry Bennet Fertility Center website.
God bless you all!
Wednesday nights are so very hard for me, because of my classroom at church. I have one student who has some serious behaviorial issues that no one not even my Nana or Papa can control. I get so stressed out and frustrated that the task at hand (teaching a Bible lesson) becomes a circus.
Tonight was no different. It was crazy and kids don't listen. I came home with a huge headache and so very stressed out. So, I realize I need to post for school and I had a notice that Dr. Reshef had posted a new video.
<script type='text/javascript' src='http://www.news9.com/global/video/videoplayer.js?rnd=278502;hostDomain=www.news9.com;playerWidth=664;playerHeight=400;isShowIcon=true;clipId=6736781;flvUri=;partnerclipid=;adTag=Sales%2520-%2520WorldNow%252033;advertisingZone=;enableAds=true;landingPage=;islandingPageoverride=false;playerType=STANDARD_EMBEDDEDscript;controlsType=overlay'></script>
if that doesn't work....here is the link.....
http://www.news9.com/category/116601/video-page?autoStart=true&topVideoCatNo=default&clipId=6736781
Anyways, it is about an Oklahoma Weather girl who is battling infertility. I have people who put me down all of the time for battling infertility and PCOS publically since socially, some of the things I blog about is inapproprate to talk about. My answer to that is: Don't read my blog, then.
Anyway, Dr. Reshef is truly amazing and in this video you can really see his compassion and love for his patients. In a way, he has given me the tiniest bit of hope by just posting that video.
Since my last blog, I haven't been dieting or going to the gym. No matter how positive I tried to stay, I couldn't focus. I am so angry that I have to face this and that some of my loved ones have to face this. I am angry that I feel empty and ugly and unwomanly. I am angry that I have to work so hard to lose weight and that my hair is falling out and that I have hair where most women don't have hair. I am angry my arms go empty while literally millions of children are being abused and/or neglected while you are reading this blog. It's not fair.
However, life is not fair. I was not promised a fair life. This video showed me that with a little more hard work and hope and prayer miracles can happen. It also reassured me that I am not alone. I know so many of you are reading this and experiencing the same hurt and anger and confusion that I am and I hope you know you are not alone and I am always here if you need someone to talk/vent/cry to.
My plan is to get back on track with everything that Dr. Reshef has recommended and to get my spiritual life back on track by daily reading and searching for God's plan for my life.
Thank you all for being my sound board, and though I am not sure Dr. Reshef can or is reading this, I really want to thank him for uploading that video on Integris Henry Bennet Fertility Center website.
God bless you all!
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