This has been the hardest secret of my life to keep. We've been so excited and wanted to Praise God for this little miracle that is growing! We are beyond happy and beyond blessed.
So, let's rewind two weeks and 3 days ago when we first found out. We came back from our Muller/Smith adventure in Florida. Something just didn't feel "right" with me. I was tired and emotional. We had been temperature charting and watching those days to catch the day of perfect ovulation. I could test the Monday we came back from vacation; however, my brilliant, handsome, wonderful husband decided we would take an at home pregnancy test on Sunday so that I would start back work in tears.
We bought a First Response 3 test pack and that Sunday Morning, I got up at like 6ish and did the business on that little stick. I had even prepared myself for the one liner, but low and behold, there was a very very very very very faint line. I immediately called for Johnathan who came barelling in the bathroom. I said, is that two lines?? Do you see one or two?? He agreed that there was another line.
So, I waited about an hour and did another and the line was darker.
I immediately was happy and there was no going back on having no hope. I was beyond excited and praying praying praying that they were true positives. I also immediately went to Google for false positives on at home pregnancy test. It was a long day.
Monday morning I got up and took a 3rd pregnancy test that was surprise surprise another positive. It was the longest two hours from 6am to 8am that I have yet to encounter so that I could get a call in to the doctor. They called me immediately and sent me for bloodwork to have HCG levels and Progesterone. These were really emotional days and times. I then had to wait another hour for the lab results and the lab results confirmed it. I am pregnant. Words could not describe how immensely happy and thankful that I was.
For the next week, we told a few people here and a few people there. I just felt that it happened really fast and was too easy. I was worried that it was a chemical pregnancy or a phantom pregnancy and Google was only making things worse. We've been praying for this for over 5 years. I've been angry at God. I've begged God. And it happened. The announcement is what I've been meditating on for two weeks: 1 Samuel 1:27: For This Child, I have prayed and you have given to me. I prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed and God answered. God made a promise and he fulfilled it. Words cannot describe how amazing that feels not just being pregnant but that God found favor in me and answered my prayers. This is amazing!!!
This past weekend, we had the annual Gilliam Christmas. We play dirty Santa and I wrapped a baby book and a pack of white onesies and waited for the gift to become unwrapped. I couldn't have planned it better. Ana's husband unwrapped it and everyone was soooooo confused. Who would buy this? Who's having a baby? So, when I announced it was me, the whole room erupted in applause and congratulations. I can't imagine a better Christmas with my loved one sharing the best news ever.
Monday, we started calling people and telling people before we made our big Facebook announcement. We just couldn't wait. We are bursting with the news. I'm not going to lie, there are a million and one things that could go wrong with this pregnancy and most experts will tell you to wait until 14 weeks (2nd trimester) but God has done something amazing. AMAZING and Psalm 105:2 says "Sing to Him, Sing Praises to Him, Tell of all His Wonderful Works and this my friends is a WONDERFUL Work. God is so good and so amazing. And if he chooses to teach me through a crises in this pregnancy, I will need all of you to lean on for support. No joke, I got that verse and read a blog about not being ashamed of a miscarriage in the same day and decided right then to not wait until the 2nd trimester.
Yesterday and this morning, I've been a ball of nerves. I had faith that God had a plan for me but sometimes, it's so hard waiting on finding out his plan. I've had trouble sleeping (but this is also a symptom of pregnancy) and difficulty concentrating (also a symptom of pregnancy).
So, this morning, it was the easiest I've ever gotten up at 5:45am. Today was the day. I went to work and talked some things out with my besties Marge & Tiffany and then met my amazing husband who is always by my side and made the trek to OKC in this dreary cold winter weather.
Let me just say that Dr. Reshef is amazing. I've said this from the beginning of the blog. I would recommend him to ANYONE who is trying to conceive and having a difficult time. He's so understanding and educates you not just talks at you. It makes a huge different. He calls me skinny and praises me for all my hard work and talks about how he is amazed. I didn't have to do any of the infertility treatments like medication etc... but we did temperature chart so without Dr. Reshef, this would not have been possible because he took the time to educate me not just give me direct orders. He completed the ultrasound and we got to see our little Poppyseed for the very first time. All of the worry and wear just left my body and my mind. God answered my prayers. We got to see the little heartbeat. No joke, it was the most beautiful thing I've experienced so far in life. The heartbeat measured in at 119 which was a completely normal range. All in all, it's a healthy pregnancy.
Let me tell you a little about Poppyseed Muller. Poppyseed is six weeks, three days old. Poppyseed should be here in August 2015. He/She has a heart and brain. He/She also has little paddles that will be legs and arms that is moving around already. Also, the areas for the eyes and ears are starting to form and kinda look like dimples. Poppyseed is growing like crazy and the placenta is working on becoming formed so it can take over the yolk sak. I have two apps and learn more and more about prenatal development every week. It's amazing the way my body is working to create another little baby. August seems like such a far far far time away.
The questions that I usually get are:
1. How are you feeling? Well, I am EXHAUSTED. I am tired all the time. I could go to bed at like 7pm and still be exhausted in the morning. I am fighting a little bit of nausousness. I haven't vomited but I gag all day through out the day. I am incessantly hungry and cannot get enough of banana peppers or jalepeno peppers.
2. What does your WLS Surgeon say? Well, he's not too happy. I wasn't supposed to try until January and I mean, we're almost there, but here I am six weeks pregnant. The nutritionist said that I should continue to lose weight throughout my pregnancy which makes me nervous. So, I consulted two other nutritionists that said just the opposite. I should gain at least 15 pounds. I should also consider adding complex carbs like fruit and whole grains to help with the lack of energy. And I have done that. I want a safe pregnancy. A safe pregnancy isn't going to have me gaining back all 156 pounds, but it should have me gain some for the baby.
So, what's next for the Mullers? Dr. Reshef wants to do another ultrasound to ensure that this is a healthy pregnancy in two weeks on the 31st. Then, he said I will graduate to an OB. I've already made an appointment with the OB. I've chosen Dr. Henslee. I have the preliminary appointment on the 30th with his office to have some OB education and lab work ups etc..
So, right now, I'm asking for prayers for a safe and healthy pregnancy. We need them.
I also want to take this time to say that we are completely moved and overwhelmed by the response on Facebook and Instagram. We are so blessed to have so many friends and family that support us and love us through our trials and our victories. Thank you for your prayers and your encouragement and kind words. Keep them coming! We need them. We need you. Thank you for being a part of our lives!
I'm happy for the both of you!! Prayers going up for a normal pregnancy.🙏👶
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