I'm sure you've all seen that today is muh birfday so here it goes:
Weight Loss from last week: 2 Pounds
Weight Loss Since Surgery: 2 Pounds
Overall Weight Loss: 79 Pounds
I think 79 pounds is a pretty good birthday present to myself. I really have worked very hard for this. It's not easy sitting back while others eat potatoes, cakes, donuts, muffins and other things that I want. But I've practiced pretty good self control!
So this week was my 6 week appointment. I always get a little nervous on doctor appointment days especially since I really had no idea what to expect. So of course I stuck with tradition and did not eat during the day because I wanted to weigh as little as possible. So, the first thing was first on weigh in day and that was that I was expected to lose between 20% and 30% of my excess body weight. I have lost 36%! I know I posted this on Facebook, but I'm excited about this and wanted to say it again.
After I weighed in, I met with exercise. I was a little nervous because I have not been to the gym as much as I would've liked. I've just been so tired that when I get home, I don't want to do anything much less 30 minutes of cardio at the Wellness Center. I was also very honest about my water aerobics fiasco fainting. While he understood my need to be competitive, he also stressed the need or me to take care of myself by taking steps with my exercise. While he doesn't want me not exercising, I also will not be running any 5Ks soon. So, I'm going to get back to walking and slowly add in water aerobics and the elipitical. If I'm doing well when I return in six more weeks, he will had some weight lifting and other rountines.
Next was with the dietician. I was nervous as all get out on this one. I knew I was going to get reamed for not drinking my 64-96 each day and for skipping breakfast. Skipping breakfast was one of the first habits that she got me to break. But all in all the only things I have to work on are those to things with the dietician. We also discussed my binder with all the menus, recipes, and grocery lists and she LOVED that. She did express some concern over the fatigue that I am still battling, the naseua, and the constipation. She has a plan for me for constipation that includes Miralax every night...yuck... The other two she wanted me to address with the physician. So her instructions with me are the Miralax, a protein bar for breakfast and doing my best to get my liquids in without excuses; however, she has no idea how busy I am during the day. So, I'm working on it. I I haven't been able to get it in today, but did really really well yesterday.
Finally I met with Dr. B who was so totally pumped about my weight loss! He couldn't be happier. He was concerned that with the nausea that only happens in the morning could be pregnancy. He's asked me to take a PG test. Have I? No. Why? I know I'm not pregnant. #1: I'm on the pill. His response to that is that since my body has undergone so much that it is still possible. #2: I just completed a cycle. #3: I'm not ready to start PG testing. It's this emotional let down for me that I'm not quite ready to take up again. Unless you have dealt with infertility, there is no possible way you can understand how one tiny little line on a stick with pee on it can be so devastating. I'm going through enough emotionally here...Let's not add another dimension just yet. After that convo, we started talking about these gosh darn leg cramps. Apparently, there is no known reason or cure. Just a few old wives tales...soooo...hooray for me I just get to live with them. We also looked at my scars. They are healing quite nicely and he doesn't think that they will be noticeable in the future. Then he wanted to look the binder and was super impressed with what I have. He did call me OCD which maybe I am a little. Lastly we discussed what he expects at the next visit in six more weeks. I asked this question because I want to exceed his expectations. For those of you who know me know this is just who I am. I want to be the best! He couldn't give me an answer? Why? Everyone is different. This is a concept that is hard for me to grasp. It's hard for me to not compete against others. I also stated I wanted to be down another 50 pounds or so before May 21st. He stated this might be a little outta my reach, but not impossible. While he loves my enthusiasim, he doesn't want me to bummed if I don't meet it. So, I'm just going to stick the diet, excercise and work my rear off for this big vacation and see if I can prove him wrong (back to being competetive and a little hard headed.)
This weekend was pretty good. My brother and I share a birthday, 3 years apart. We always go to Dallas for the weekend and just have a good time. I got new clothes. This is another psychological thing for me because I didn't want to be bummed about shopping for clothes but this was a whole new experience. I was able to fit clothes that I haven't be able to since high school. I was even kinda sad that Hot Topic didn't have my size so I bought a size smaller. I tried it on for what they hey and it fit. I almost starting crying. I did not anticipate that shopping would be this much fun at this point in the game, but I'm almost out of the 20s peeps. I haven't been out of a size 20 since junior year in high school. 12 years ago! 12! It's crazy to me and so freeing. I am almost a size where I won't always have to shop plus size. You have no idea how amazing this feels to me.
The only bad thing that happend was at Medieval Times. I love this place. Of course I would. I'm obesessed with kings and queens and courts and all of that era. Johnathan and I have quite the system when it comes to food where basically we switch plates and he finishes my meal. Well there is a ton of food at Medieval Times. I did overeat a little I think but I did not throw up, but started to feel a little blah. I sat back in my chair and I guess had this look of misery on my face because the server made a negative comment that alluded to my weight as he rubbed his belly and puffed up his cheeks. It was like a punch in the stomach. I've worked this hard and lost almost 80 pounds and still get treated this way even though I didn't eat the meal, my skinny hubby did. The more I think about it the madder I get because it was really offensive and very uncalled for. I've filled out the complaint form on the website twice and I didn't even get a confirmation email back. If I haven't heard from them by Friday, I'm calling. I just don't want anyone else no matter what size or reason to feel the way I felt. I know what acting is and I know that acting is a part of the server's job, but if a server was to speak to a Lord or Lady that way in that era, the outcome would be different.
Anyways, so for now the plan is to get my liquids in. So if you see me without a waterbottle, ask me where it is and if I've met my goal. I'm also fixing to clean out my closet and make a trip to a consignment shop. I think it's time.
So continue to pray for us as I continue to work hard. Pray for me to have strength and some emotional stress relief.
Happy Reading!!
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