It's a New Day... and a New Me

I'm sorry I didn't get to blog yesterday. I told you all that I would try but yesterday it was just not possible.

Monday night, we went to group therapy. Red Coyote shoes from OKC was there making a presentaiton. They specialized in measuring your feet to let you know which type of shoe you should be wearing when you work out. The next appointment that I have in OKC, we are going to stop by and look at the shoes and let them measure me.


Yesterday morning, I woke up at like 4:00am. I couldn't sleep. I was anxious and worried. I'm so glad that Johnathan, Michael Andrew and Seth Aaron were there to keep me company. Johnathan helps with calming nervous and the boys made me laugh. We also took my "before" picture of me in a pair of jeans and in a white tee. I want to do one either once a month or a week. I haven't decided. I may just do once a month so that you all can really see the difference.

When we arrived at the hospital, I had to go to the admitting process. It took like ten minutes and the next question they asked was if I had a hysterectomy. Of course the answer is no. So, then I had to take a pregnancy test. A part of me hoped it was positive. That's why I'm doing this right so that I can get pregnant. Of course that test negative. Again, that little part of me was bummed out and upset. There's nothing like failing a test right?

Anyways, then they took me back for pre-op. I had to weigh and of course I had lost another 5 pounds. I was pumped because it put me at a weight that I hadn't been in years! Next, I had to get undressed and into a hospital gown. I was officially scared. It was real and happening. After I had on the awful gown and the non-slip socks, I had to get in the hospital bed. They placed an IV in me which of course is my favorite thing (insert eye roll here). Then I had to get a shot in the side of my belly. It didn't feel too great but it was an antibiotic for my stomach for keeping me from getting an infection. They also placed some other medicines into my IV one was for getting rid of some of the stomach acid and I cannot remember what the other one was for honestly. She also put these things on my legs that will hook up to a machine to keep the blood flowing to prevent blood clots.

Next, the anesthesiologist came in to speak to me. She told me what they were going to do to put me out which was put the anesthesia in the IV line. She also told me about the likely side effects which sounded awful and we will get to the ones that really did effect me in a little while.

Then, Dr. B came in and asked for questions. Explained a few things and he told me that he would see me in a few minutes.

Finally, the OR nurse came in along with the anesthesiologist. They told Johnathan to start kissing me goodbye that I was about to go back. They wheeled me back to the OR. At this point, I was really thinking to myself if I really wanted to do this because I only had a few moments to decide. Next, when we got to the room, they parked the bed and asked me to "scoot" to the other bed. I just sat up and jumped over and they laughed and said "Well, that's how we should tell everyone to do it." Apparently, other patients literaly scoot inch by inch.

I don't remember much after that. I just remember waking up in post up and looking at the nurse. She asked me how I felt and I remember telling her that I felt as if I was having a heartattack. She said it was just gas and is completely normal. It hurt pretty badly. And I felt like was going to throw up.

The next thing I remember, I'm in my room and the nurses are getting everything ready. The machine they hooked up to my legs were on and they felt pretty weird. I remember the nurse asking everyone to leave the room. I asked if Johnathan could stay and she said not right now. She asked me how I felt and I said I was going to throw up. She gave me some Phenegren and some paid medicine. I remember she told JOhnathan that people could come back in; however, they had to be very quiet since that time was the only time I would be able to rest between then and 10:00pm. I heard Michael Andrew say that he and Seth Aaron were just going to go and then Mom and Randy left too so I could get a little rest. Once the meds kicked in, I was able to rest until they got me up to walk.

I got up and walked a lap around the floor. It wasn't easy but it didn't make me hurt any. When i got back to the room, the CNA came in and explained how to sip water. It's a completely new experience. My throat so was so dry that I wanted to take it and chug it, but I was a good patient and sipped. Then it was time to walk again. I made it halfway down the hall and threw up. I didn't throw up much because there really wasn't anything to throw up. I finished a lap and made it back to my room. The nurse came in with a different medicine to help with the nausea. It didn't help too much because within the hour, I was throwing up again and now my scars started to get a little sore. At this poing in the evening, I started to cry. I felt so bad that I looked over at my husband and said "I've made a terrible mistake." I don't believe that now, but I was feeeling very crappy. I was supposed to stay awake so that I could keep sipping the liquid; however, I could barely keep my eyes open so Johnathan woke me up every 5 minutes to sip water and then every hour to do a lap. It was a pretty long night.

At 10:30, I had enough and decided to go to bed. It hurt to lie down. My scars hurt a little. So I adjusted my bed up a little so that I wasn't laying flat. The nurse came in and gave me the pain medicine and I slept really well until the nurse came back in to check my vitals. I only had water bottle and 1/2 to get down so I started on it right away. Dr. B came in and said that everything was looking good that I should be able to go home today. He said that I have to have two bottles of liquid down before lunch, two more bottles before dinner and then two more before bed. Right now, it seems like an impossible task. But, I'm working on it.

Finally, the nurse came in to discharge me! I was so excited to go home! I got dressed and we loaded up and left. We stopped at Academy because I want a Camelbak cup. It's a cup with a one way straw that you have to bite down on to get the water out. This will help with the sipping. It will help teach me to sip not gulp. I got a pink one. It's rather cute. Then, we got into the car. The car brought back my nausea hard core. We were told to stop every hour on the way home so that i could walk. When we stopped at Shawnee, the nausea was too hard core to handle, so we werent through Walgreens and got my presecription for Phenegran and pain killer filled. After, I took it, I slept all the way.

I still feel really nauseated and my scars are very sore, but I can do this. This is a new day and a new me. I'm just counting down the days until I'm released to get pregnant :).

Again, I really want to thank you all for you prayers and support. This isn't going to be easy and to know that I have so much support makes me feel loved and really makes me realize that I can do this.

So, for now, that's all that I need prayers and support because this does feel so bad for right now.

Anyways, hopefully, I can get in another blog in a day or two.

Happy reading! and God Bless You!