Tuesday, January 13, 2015
Moments with the Mullers: Week 10 Update & My Thoughts about Pregnancy & Die...
Moments with the Mullers: Week 10 Update & My Thoughts about Pregnancy & Die...: If last week was the week of feeling like death, this week was feeling like normal. The morning sickness is not as strong and I'm not vo...
Week 10 Update & My Thoughts about Pregnancy & Diet
If last week was the week of feeling like death, this week was feeling like normal. The morning sickness is not as strong and I'm not vomiting anymore. At first I was a little worried, but after a quick trip to Google, I've learned that 80% of women are bothered by morning sickness, but everyone is different and it comes in waves. Comparing myself to other pregnant women is ludicrous because not all pregnancies are the same.
I have in this last week lost a total of 2 pounds. I've also read this is normal. Many women lose weight in early pregnancy because of morning sickness. My fertility specialist was super concerned about weight loss because he wants to make sure that the baby is getting enough nutrients. I can assure the baby is getting what the baby needs. #1. I'm eating and eating often. #2. I've added complex carbs in my diet as well as some unhealthy ones on occasion. #3. I'm on a Vitamin B Complex, Bariatric Vitamins and a Prenatal vitamin. There's enough nutrients in the six tablets I take on a daily basis to supply a horse with nutrients. I'm not saying that I'm eating bags of oreos, but if I feel like it, yes, I have an Oreo or maybe two. Do I feel guilty about this? Not at all.
So, many of my friends have some pretty good advice for me when it comes to pregnancy. I will tell you that I've been researching pregnancy since we decided to start trying. I've read blogs and websites and books and I can guarantee you that NOTHING has prepared me for this experience. It's been scary and it's been exciting. It's been joyous and it's been miserable. There's so much to feel all at once that I can honestly say that I've not been prepared.
A good friend, Stephanie, told me to put What to Expect to the side and read "The Girlfriends' Guide to Pregnancy" by Vickie Iovine. It is WONDERFUL. It doesn't just give you the scientific things that's happening but real life accounts of women and their pregnancies. It's just a different, non-judgmental, view.
I'm not very far into the book but there have been a few things that I have really stuck with me this especially in regards to weight gain and diet.
The first is that my weight is between me and my doctor. It's no one else's business. This is important because the wls part of me is SUPER worried about weight gain and how people are going to feel and see me if I gain weight especially if I gain what people or books say that I should gain. My self image is important to me and the way people perceive me has always mattered to me. But the thing is, it's really not anyone else's business but me and the doctor. He is going to work with me with what is best and is working. That's why he went to medical school and has a successful practice. He is going to know what is best for me and the baby.
Which brings me to the next key point I got from Ms. Iovine "Our self-esteem issues that are tied to weight, and have been since puberty, are not more inappropriate than when we are pregnant." This is not a time to focus on weight loss. This is a time to focus on healthy weight gain and is a time where I can kinda relax and enjoy a time in my life where it's okay for the scale to tip upward. This is so psychological because, as you have read, I've battled weight my WHOLE life. I've never felt pretty or skinny until here recently so this self-esteem thing is pretty important. I need to focus on my self-esteem in knowing that I've never been happier than these last ten weeks knowing that I'm growing a miracle inside of me. Also, because of this little miracle, pregnancy is beautiful whether I don't gain a pound or if I gain 80 pounds. Pregnancy is this gift from God and it is beautiful no matter what.
The last thing that hit me this week was a tip about how to deal with the weight gain at the doctor's office which is to simply ignore it. Again, the doctor is going to work with me on what's best. So Ms. Iovine states to "stand backward on the scale when you are being weighed at the doctor's office and ask them not to tell you how much you've lost or gained." The doctor will alarm you if something isn't right or if he's disappointed or what not. Why stress out about something if there's really no issue. That's what you pay the doctor for to tell you what's right and what's wrong. Which just reiterates that my weight is between my doctor and myself.
So, in short, I'm going to enjoy this pregnancy and not try to focus on the weight gain portion of this pregnancy. That's not what this is about. This is about growing a tiny human and what's best for my poppyseed.
Speaking of my poppyseed, we are officially 10 weeks! Poppyseed is the size of a prune which is almost an inch and half and weighs about 0.14 oz. Poppyseed has working arm joints and cartilage and bones are forming. Vital organs are fully formed and they are even starting to work! Poppyseed is even starting to spout fingernails and hair! Poppyseed is even swallowing and kicking in there! Even though I can't feel it!
We had another ultrasound this week. These are so magical! This week was no different. You can actually see the baby moving. The baby was moving like crazy! Arms and legs and even looked like poppyseed was bouncing about my uterus. The ultrasound tech said that much movement is a good thing because it means the baby is feeling good! I don't think I've stopped smiling since. I did ask the ultrasound tech if this many ultrasounds will continue. I'm 10 weeks and had 3 ultrasounds already. I'm not complaining, but this isn't something they normally do but because I'm labeled high risk, they are just watching me and my little miracle closely. She said that because I've had three really good ultrasounds and there's basically nothing alarming the physician that they will probably start to slow down a bit. It kinda makes me sad that I don't get to see the baby as much, but I'm glad we are both healthy so far.
So, prayer requests for this week are for continued good news as we meet Dr. Henslee for the first time on Monday. Also, say a prayer that as I started my second semester of grad school, that my energy will keep up with this fast paced lifestyle for the rest of the semester. Only 16 weeks until summer break!!
Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. Having friends and family like you to share this with this what makes this experience worth sharing. God bless you and know that Johnathan and I love you all very much!
I have in this last week lost a total of 2 pounds. I've also read this is normal. Many women lose weight in early pregnancy because of morning sickness. My fertility specialist was super concerned about weight loss because he wants to make sure that the baby is getting enough nutrients. I can assure the baby is getting what the baby needs. #1. I'm eating and eating often. #2. I've added complex carbs in my diet as well as some unhealthy ones on occasion. #3. I'm on a Vitamin B Complex, Bariatric Vitamins and a Prenatal vitamin. There's enough nutrients in the six tablets I take on a daily basis to supply a horse with nutrients. I'm not saying that I'm eating bags of oreos, but if I feel like it, yes, I have an Oreo or maybe two. Do I feel guilty about this? Not at all.
So, many of my friends have some pretty good advice for me when it comes to pregnancy. I will tell you that I've been researching pregnancy since we decided to start trying. I've read blogs and websites and books and I can guarantee you that NOTHING has prepared me for this experience. It's been scary and it's been exciting. It's been joyous and it's been miserable. There's so much to feel all at once that I can honestly say that I've not been prepared.
A good friend, Stephanie, told me to put What to Expect to the side and read "The Girlfriends' Guide to Pregnancy" by Vickie Iovine. It is WONDERFUL. It doesn't just give you the scientific things that's happening but real life accounts of women and their pregnancies. It's just a different, non-judgmental, view.
I'm not very far into the book but there have been a few things that I have really stuck with me this especially in regards to weight gain and diet.
The first is that my weight is between me and my doctor. It's no one else's business. This is important because the wls part of me is SUPER worried about weight gain and how people are going to feel and see me if I gain weight especially if I gain what people or books say that I should gain. My self image is important to me and the way people perceive me has always mattered to me. But the thing is, it's really not anyone else's business but me and the doctor. He is going to work with me with what is best and is working. That's why he went to medical school and has a successful practice. He is going to know what is best for me and the baby.
Which brings me to the next key point I got from Ms. Iovine "Our self-esteem issues that are tied to weight, and have been since puberty, are not more inappropriate than when we are pregnant." This is not a time to focus on weight loss. This is a time to focus on healthy weight gain and is a time where I can kinda relax and enjoy a time in my life where it's okay for the scale to tip upward. This is so psychological because, as you have read, I've battled weight my WHOLE life. I've never felt pretty or skinny until here recently so this self-esteem thing is pretty important. I need to focus on my self-esteem in knowing that I've never been happier than these last ten weeks knowing that I'm growing a miracle inside of me. Also, because of this little miracle, pregnancy is beautiful whether I don't gain a pound or if I gain 80 pounds. Pregnancy is this gift from God and it is beautiful no matter what.
The last thing that hit me this week was a tip about how to deal with the weight gain at the doctor's office which is to simply ignore it. Again, the doctor is going to work with me on what's best. So Ms. Iovine states to "stand backward on the scale when you are being weighed at the doctor's office and ask them not to tell you how much you've lost or gained." The doctor will alarm you if something isn't right or if he's disappointed or what not. Why stress out about something if there's really no issue. That's what you pay the doctor for to tell you what's right and what's wrong. Which just reiterates that my weight is between my doctor and myself.
So, in short, I'm going to enjoy this pregnancy and not try to focus on the weight gain portion of this pregnancy. That's not what this is about. This is about growing a tiny human and what's best for my poppyseed.
Speaking of my poppyseed, we are officially 10 weeks! Poppyseed is the size of a prune which is almost an inch and half and weighs about 0.14 oz. Poppyseed has working arm joints and cartilage and bones are forming. Vital organs are fully formed and they are even starting to work! Poppyseed is even starting to spout fingernails and hair! Poppyseed is even swallowing and kicking in there! Even though I can't feel it!
We had another ultrasound this week. These are so magical! This week was no different. You can actually see the baby moving. The baby was moving like crazy! Arms and legs and even looked like poppyseed was bouncing about my uterus. The ultrasound tech said that much movement is a good thing because it means the baby is feeling good! I don't think I've stopped smiling since. I did ask the ultrasound tech if this many ultrasounds will continue. I'm 10 weeks and had 3 ultrasounds already. I'm not complaining, but this isn't something they normally do but because I'm labeled high risk, they are just watching me and my little miracle closely. She said that because I've had three really good ultrasounds and there's basically nothing alarming the physician that they will probably start to slow down a bit. It kinda makes me sad that I don't get to see the baby as much, but I'm glad we are both healthy so far.
So, prayer requests for this week are for continued good news as we meet Dr. Henslee for the first time on Monday. Also, say a prayer that as I started my second semester of grad school, that my energy will keep up with this fast paced lifestyle for the rest of the semester. Only 16 weeks until summer break!!
Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. Having friends and family like you to share this with this what makes this experience worth sharing. God bless you and know that Johnathan and I love you all very much!
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Moments with the Mullers: First blog of 2015!
Moments with the Mullers: First blog of 2015!: It's a new year year! Happy New Year (6 days late)! I know it's been two weeks since I've blogged. Life has been a whirlwind s...
First blog of 2015!
It's a new year year! Happy New Year (6 days late)!
I know it's been two weeks since I've blogged. Life has been a whirlwind since we got the big news. There was Christmas and then the New Year but it's finally starting to slow down.
So, Christmas was wonderful. I really do love Christmas because we get to celebrate God's greatest gift to us which was His Son, Jesus Christ. I also love the "magic" of Christmas. I love for my loved ones to open the gifts and love them. Nothing makes me happier.
On December 30th, I met with Dr. Henslee's office. I didn't get to see Dr. Henslee but I met with his nurse and got all the medical questions out of the way. So, if you know me, you know that I am SUPER organized. I had everything in order to start the appointment including past medical records (in chronological order) and a detailed list of all my current medications. I am a bit OCD about things. I was listed as high risk because of the surgery and the fact that we've been infertile for the past five years. But, so far, it's a healthy pregnancy and nothing to be worried about. We made our appointment to meet Dr. Henslee and for yet another ultrasound. One positive of being labeled as high risk is getting to see my baby every two weeks. I anticipate that is going to slow down, but it is awful nice.
New Years Eve was amazing! We got up that morning and dropped Crimson off for boarding. Can I just take a moment to tell you how much I love that puppy. He is an amazing dog and I'm so glad we decided to bring him home and that he chose to love us! I do hate boarding him. I miss him so much when he's there but I know he's in good hands at the vet. We took off to OKC. I have the best reproductive endocrinologist in the world. Dr. Reshef and his entire office are amazing. And I'm not just saying that because I'm growing a human. I'm saying that because I've never worked with a doctor as kind and understanding as he is. He's been there for us these last five years. If you or anyone you know is in need of a fertility specialist or reproductive endocrinologist, message me. I'll give you all the details. Anyways, this time we videoed the ultrasound. If you wanna see it, just ask me in person. I don't want to post it online because it does have PHI on it. But it's magical. The heart rate was 166. The baby is growing right on track! We also got to hear the heartbeat for the first time. It was perfect. It was the most beautiful sound in the world. And it was just a simple rhythm. I don't know how a 15 minute appointment can mean so much but it does. After it was over, Dr. Reshef officially told us that we had graduated the infertility program. He hugged me and I cried. No joke, this doctor is the best.
We also spent NYE with the Miller family. I've started the new year with my best friend Vanessa Miller every year for the last 11 years. It's always been a blast and this year was no exception. Games and good food and great conversation. The baby also got the first gift. Tommy made us a bassinet. It's beautiful and handmade. It's going to look awesome! I'm so proud of it! The Miller family has been so good to me throughout the year and I can't wait to share this experience and for this baby to be a part of it.
We headed out to Duncan on New Year's Day to spend time with Paul, Sherry, Nathan, Amanda & Kainan. We always have a great time in Duncan. We got to spend some time with our family and celebrate Christmas with them. We love our time in Duncan and hate that we don't get to go more often. Thank you Paul, Sherry, Nathan & Amanda for always making us feel welcome and for loving us so much!
We came home on Saturday so that I can have a little rest before work started. I'm glad that we did because Sunday is when the morning sickness really set in. I got up Sunday morning and could just feel something didn't feel the same. I rested all day but Sunday night I was up all night with it. I'm not complaining but I started this blog being honest and honestly, I talk about the magic part of the ultrasounds but it's not all magical. Morning sickness or all day and night sickness is no joke. It's not fun at all. The smallest thing or movement can set it all off again. It SUCKS! But, I believe, in the end, it's all worth it.
Today, I'm feeling a little better. I've been able to hold down two meals and two snacks. I had enough energy for an 8 hour work day as well as a trip to Walmart. I know it's going to be cold, so I'm guessing people ran to Walmart because #1: They were out of everything and #2: the lines were horribly long.
So, now let's get to the focus of the blog for 2015. Our poppyseed. Our poppyseed is 9 weeks! Poppyseed is the size of a green olive like the one they put in a martini. Tiny muscles are begining to form and he or she is moving her arms and legs. We also reached a milestone is that we no longer have an embryo but a fetus. It's a pretty big deal for the first trimester. We also have some distinct facial features. Poppyseed is starting to look more like a baby and less like a tadpole.
So, continue to pray for our little poppyseed and that he keeps growing. It's been a wonderful journey for the three of us so far!
Also, we've set up an email account for our poppyseed. I've been emailing her every week and plan to until he is born. Then for the first year every month and then every year until she is 18 and then I'll give him the password. If you want to send poppyseed some love too the email address is muller.poppyseed@gmail.com. Feel free to send some love!
Thank you for your support and prayers. We love you all!
I know it's been two weeks since I've blogged. Life has been a whirlwind since we got the big news. There was Christmas and then the New Year but it's finally starting to slow down.
So, Christmas was wonderful. I really do love Christmas because we get to celebrate God's greatest gift to us which was His Son, Jesus Christ. I also love the "magic" of Christmas. I love for my loved ones to open the gifts and love them. Nothing makes me happier.
On December 30th, I met with Dr. Henslee's office. I didn't get to see Dr. Henslee but I met with his nurse and got all the medical questions out of the way. So, if you know me, you know that I am SUPER organized. I had everything in order to start the appointment including past medical records (in chronological order) and a detailed list of all my current medications. I am a bit OCD about things. I was listed as high risk because of the surgery and the fact that we've been infertile for the past five years. But, so far, it's a healthy pregnancy and nothing to be worried about. We made our appointment to meet Dr. Henslee and for yet another ultrasound. One positive of being labeled as high risk is getting to see my baby every two weeks. I anticipate that is going to slow down, but it is awful nice.
New Years Eve was amazing! We got up that morning and dropped Crimson off for boarding. Can I just take a moment to tell you how much I love that puppy. He is an amazing dog and I'm so glad we decided to bring him home and that he chose to love us! I do hate boarding him. I miss him so much when he's there but I know he's in good hands at the vet. We took off to OKC. I have the best reproductive endocrinologist in the world. Dr. Reshef and his entire office are amazing. And I'm not just saying that because I'm growing a human. I'm saying that because I've never worked with a doctor as kind and understanding as he is. He's been there for us these last five years. If you or anyone you know is in need of a fertility specialist or reproductive endocrinologist, message me. I'll give you all the details. Anyways, this time we videoed the ultrasound. If you wanna see it, just ask me in person. I don't want to post it online because it does have PHI on it. But it's magical. The heart rate was 166. The baby is growing right on track! We also got to hear the heartbeat for the first time. It was perfect. It was the most beautiful sound in the world. And it was just a simple rhythm. I don't know how a 15 minute appointment can mean so much but it does. After it was over, Dr. Reshef officially told us that we had graduated the infertility program. He hugged me and I cried. No joke, this doctor is the best.
We also spent NYE with the Miller family. I've started the new year with my best friend Vanessa Miller every year for the last 11 years. It's always been a blast and this year was no exception. Games and good food and great conversation. The baby also got the first gift. Tommy made us a bassinet. It's beautiful and handmade. It's going to look awesome! I'm so proud of it! The Miller family has been so good to me throughout the year and I can't wait to share this experience and for this baby to be a part of it.
We headed out to Duncan on New Year's Day to spend time with Paul, Sherry, Nathan, Amanda & Kainan. We always have a great time in Duncan. We got to spend some time with our family and celebrate Christmas with them. We love our time in Duncan and hate that we don't get to go more often. Thank you Paul, Sherry, Nathan & Amanda for always making us feel welcome and for loving us so much!
We came home on Saturday so that I can have a little rest before work started. I'm glad that we did because Sunday is when the morning sickness really set in. I got up Sunday morning and could just feel something didn't feel the same. I rested all day but Sunday night I was up all night with it. I'm not complaining but I started this blog being honest and honestly, I talk about the magic part of the ultrasounds but it's not all magical. Morning sickness or all day and night sickness is no joke. It's not fun at all. The smallest thing or movement can set it all off again. It SUCKS! But, I believe, in the end, it's all worth it.
Today, I'm feeling a little better. I've been able to hold down two meals and two snacks. I had enough energy for an 8 hour work day as well as a trip to Walmart. I know it's going to be cold, so I'm guessing people ran to Walmart because #1: They were out of everything and #2: the lines were horribly long.
So, now let's get to the focus of the blog for 2015. Our poppyseed. Our poppyseed is 9 weeks! Poppyseed is the size of a green olive like the one they put in a martini. Tiny muscles are begining to form and he or she is moving her arms and legs. We also reached a milestone is that we no longer have an embryo but a fetus. It's a pretty big deal for the first trimester. We also have some distinct facial features. Poppyseed is starting to look more like a baby and less like a tadpole.
So, continue to pray for our little poppyseed and that he keeps growing. It's been a wonderful journey for the three of us so far!
Also, we've set up an email account for our poppyseed. I've been emailing her every week and plan to until he is born. Then for the first year every month and then every year until she is 18 and then I'll give him the password. If you want to send poppyseed some love too the email address is muller.poppyseed@gmail.com. Feel free to send some love!
Thank you for your support and prayers. We love you all!
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Moments with the Mullers: FB Official and NOW BLOG OFFICIAL!
Moments with the Mullers: FB Official and NOW BLOG OFFICIAL!: I'm assuming you all read my announcement post announcing our very first pregnancy. For now, we will no longer be doing weekly weigh ins...
FB Official and NOW BLOG OFFICIAL!
I'm assuming you all read my announcement post announcing our very first pregnancy. For now, we will no longer be doing weekly weigh ins but weekly information about our little poppyseed. Yes, I said poppyseed. That's what we are calling Baby Muller because that was the size of our baby when we got official word that we were in fact pregnant....which was two weeks ago.
This has been the hardest secret of my life to keep. We've been so excited and wanted to Praise God for this little miracle that is growing! We are beyond happy and beyond blessed.
So, let's rewind two weeks and 3 days ago when we first found out. We came back from our Muller/Smith adventure in Florida. Something just didn't feel "right" with me. I was tired and emotional. We had been temperature charting and watching those days to catch the day of perfect ovulation. I could test the Monday we came back from vacation; however, my brilliant, handsome, wonderful husband decided we would take an at home pregnancy test on Sunday so that I would start back work in tears.
We bought a First Response 3 test pack and that Sunday Morning, I got up at like 6ish and did the business on that little stick. I had even prepared myself for the one liner, but low and behold, there was a very very very very very faint line. I immediately called for Johnathan who came barelling in the bathroom. I said, is that two lines?? Do you see one or two?? He agreed that there was another line.
So, I waited about an hour and did another and the line was darker.
I immediately was happy and there was no going back on having no hope. I was beyond excited and praying praying praying that they were true positives. I also immediately went to Google for false positives on at home pregnancy test. It was a long day.
Monday morning I got up and took a 3rd pregnancy test that was surprise surprise another positive. It was the longest two hours from 6am to 8am that I have yet to encounter so that I could get a call in to the doctor. They called me immediately and sent me for bloodwork to have HCG levels and Progesterone. These were really emotional days and times. I then had to wait another hour for the lab results and the lab results confirmed it. I am pregnant. Words could not describe how immensely happy and thankful that I was.
For the next week, we told a few people here and a few people there. I just felt that it happened really fast and was too easy. I was worried that it was a chemical pregnancy or a phantom pregnancy and Google was only making things worse. We've been praying for this for over 5 years. I've been angry at God. I've begged God. And it happened. The announcement is what I've been meditating on for two weeks: 1 Samuel 1:27: For This Child, I have prayed and you have given to me. I prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed and God answered. God made a promise and he fulfilled it. Words cannot describe how amazing that feels not just being pregnant but that God found favor in me and answered my prayers. This is amazing!!!
This past weekend, we had the annual Gilliam Christmas. We play dirty Santa and I wrapped a baby book and a pack of white onesies and waited for the gift to become unwrapped. I couldn't have planned it better. Ana's husband unwrapped it and everyone was soooooo confused. Who would buy this? Who's having a baby? So, when I announced it was me, the whole room erupted in applause and congratulations. I can't imagine a better Christmas with my loved one sharing the best news ever.
Monday, we started calling people and telling people before we made our big Facebook announcement. We just couldn't wait. We are bursting with the news. I'm not going to lie, there are a million and one things that could go wrong with this pregnancy and most experts will tell you to wait until 14 weeks (2nd trimester) but God has done something amazing. AMAZING and Psalm 105:2 says "Sing to Him, Sing Praises to Him, Tell of all His Wonderful Works and this my friends is a WONDERFUL Work. God is so good and so amazing. And if he chooses to teach me through a crises in this pregnancy, I will need all of you to lean on for support. No joke, I got that verse and read a blog about not being ashamed of a miscarriage in the same day and decided right then to not wait until the 2nd trimester.
Yesterday and this morning, I've been a ball of nerves. I had faith that God had a plan for me but sometimes, it's so hard waiting on finding out his plan. I've had trouble sleeping (but this is also a symptom of pregnancy) and difficulty concentrating (also a symptom of pregnancy).
So, this morning, it was the easiest I've ever gotten up at 5:45am. Today was the day. I went to work and talked some things out with my besties Marge & Tiffany and then met my amazing husband who is always by my side and made the trek to OKC in this dreary cold winter weather.
Let me just say that Dr. Reshef is amazing. I've said this from the beginning of the blog. I would recommend him to ANYONE who is trying to conceive and having a difficult time. He's so understanding and educates you not just talks at you. It makes a huge different. He calls me skinny and praises me for all my hard work and talks about how he is amazed. I didn't have to do any of the infertility treatments like medication etc... but we did temperature chart so without Dr. Reshef, this would not have been possible because he took the time to educate me not just give me direct orders. He completed the ultrasound and we got to see our little Poppyseed for the very first time. All of the worry and wear just left my body and my mind. God answered my prayers. We got to see the little heartbeat. No joke, it was the most beautiful thing I've experienced so far in life. The heartbeat measured in at 119 which was a completely normal range. All in all, it's a healthy pregnancy.
Let me tell you a little about Poppyseed Muller. Poppyseed is six weeks, three days old. Poppyseed should be here in August 2015. He/She has a heart and brain. He/She also has little paddles that will be legs and arms that is moving around already. Also, the areas for the eyes and ears are starting to form and kinda look like dimples. Poppyseed is growing like crazy and the placenta is working on becoming formed so it can take over the yolk sak. I have two apps and learn more and more about prenatal development every week. It's amazing the way my body is working to create another little baby. August seems like such a far far far time away.
The questions that I usually get are:
1. How are you feeling? Well, I am EXHAUSTED. I am tired all the time. I could go to bed at like 7pm and still be exhausted in the morning. I am fighting a little bit of nausousness. I haven't vomited but I gag all day through out the day. I am incessantly hungry and cannot get enough of banana peppers or jalepeno peppers.
2. What does your WLS Surgeon say? Well, he's not too happy. I wasn't supposed to try until January and I mean, we're almost there, but here I am six weeks pregnant. The nutritionist said that I should continue to lose weight throughout my pregnancy which makes me nervous. So, I consulted two other nutritionists that said just the opposite. I should gain at least 15 pounds. I should also consider adding complex carbs like fruit and whole grains to help with the lack of energy. And I have done that. I want a safe pregnancy. A safe pregnancy isn't going to have me gaining back all 156 pounds, but it should have me gain some for the baby.
So, what's next for the Mullers? Dr. Reshef wants to do another ultrasound to ensure that this is a healthy pregnancy in two weeks on the 31st. Then, he said I will graduate to an OB. I've already made an appointment with the OB. I've chosen Dr. Henslee. I have the preliminary appointment on the 30th with his office to have some OB education and lab work ups etc..
So, right now, I'm asking for prayers for a safe and healthy pregnancy. We need them.
I also want to take this time to say that we are completely moved and overwhelmed by the response on Facebook and Instagram. We are so blessed to have so many friends and family that support us and love us through our trials and our victories. Thank you for your prayers and your encouragement and kind words. Keep them coming! We need them. We need you. Thank you for being a part of our lives!
This has been the hardest secret of my life to keep. We've been so excited and wanted to Praise God for this little miracle that is growing! We are beyond happy and beyond blessed.
So, let's rewind two weeks and 3 days ago when we first found out. We came back from our Muller/Smith adventure in Florida. Something just didn't feel "right" with me. I was tired and emotional. We had been temperature charting and watching those days to catch the day of perfect ovulation. I could test the Monday we came back from vacation; however, my brilliant, handsome, wonderful husband decided we would take an at home pregnancy test on Sunday so that I would start back work in tears.
We bought a First Response 3 test pack and that Sunday Morning, I got up at like 6ish and did the business on that little stick. I had even prepared myself for the one liner, but low and behold, there was a very very very very very faint line. I immediately called for Johnathan who came barelling in the bathroom. I said, is that two lines?? Do you see one or two?? He agreed that there was another line.
So, I waited about an hour and did another and the line was darker.
I immediately was happy and there was no going back on having no hope. I was beyond excited and praying praying praying that they were true positives. I also immediately went to Google for false positives on at home pregnancy test. It was a long day.
Monday morning I got up and took a 3rd pregnancy test that was surprise surprise another positive. It was the longest two hours from 6am to 8am that I have yet to encounter so that I could get a call in to the doctor. They called me immediately and sent me for bloodwork to have HCG levels and Progesterone. These were really emotional days and times. I then had to wait another hour for the lab results and the lab results confirmed it. I am pregnant. Words could not describe how immensely happy and thankful that I was.
For the next week, we told a few people here and a few people there. I just felt that it happened really fast and was too easy. I was worried that it was a chemical pregnancy or a phantom pregnancy and Google was only making things worse. We've been praying for this for over 5 years. I've been angry at God. I've begged God. And it happened. The announcement is what I've been meditating on for two weeks: 1 Samuel 1:27: For This Child, I have prayed and you have given to me. I prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed and God answered. God made a promise and he fulfilled it. Words cannot describe how amazing that feels not just being pregnant but that God found favor in me and answered my prayers. This is amazing!!!
This past weekend, we had the annual Gilliam Christmas. We play dirty Santa and I wrapped a baby book and a pack of white onesies and waited for the gift to become unwrapped. I couldn't have planned it better. Ana's husband unwrapped it and everyone was soooooo confused. Who would buy this? Who's having a baby? So, when I announced it was me, the whole room erupted in applause and congratulations. I can't imagine a better Christmas with my loved one sharing the best news ever.
Monday, we started calling people and telling people before we made our big Facebook announcement. We just couldn't wait. We are bursting with the news. I'm not going to lie, there are a million and one things that could go wrong with this pregnancy and most experts will tell you to wait until 14 weeks (2nd trimester) but God has done something amazing. AMAZING and Psalm 105:2 says "Sing to Him, Sing Praises to Him, Tell of all His Wonderful Works and this my friends is a WONDERFUL Work. God is so good and so amazing. And if he chooses to teach me through a crises in this pregnancy, I will need all of you to lean on for support. No joke, I got that verse and read a blog about not being ashamed of a miscarriage in the same day and decided right then to not wait until the 2nd trimester.
Yesterday and this morning, I've been a ball of nerves. I had faith that God had a plan for me but sometimes, it's so hard waiting on finding out his plan. I've had trouble sleeping (but this is also a symptom of pregnancy) and difficulty concentrating (also a symptom of pregnancy).
So, this morning, it was the easiest I've ever gotten up at 5:45am. Today was the day. I went to work and talked some things out with my besties Marge & Tiffany and then met my amazing husband who is always by my side and made the trek to OKC in this dreary cold winter weather.
Let me just say that Dr. Reshef is amazing. I've said this from the beginning of the blog. I would recommend him to ANYONE who is trying to conceive and having a difficult time. He's so understanding and educates you not just talks at you. It makes a huge different. He calls me skinny and praises me for all my hard work and talks about how he is amazed. I didn't have to do any of the infertility treatments like medication etc... but we did temperature chart so without Dr. Reshef, this would not have been possible because he took the time to educate me not just give me direct orders. He completed the ultrasound and we got to see our little Poppyseed for the very first time. All of the worry and wear just left my body and my mind. God answered my prayers. We got to see the little heartbeat. No joke, it was the most beautiful thing I've experienced so far in life. The heartbeat measured in at 119 which was a completely normal range. All in all, it's a healthy pregnancy.
Let me tell you a little about Poppyseed Muller. Poppyseed is six weeks, three days old. Poppyseed should be here in August 2015. He/She has a heart and brain. He/She also has little paddles that will be legs and arms that is moving around already. Also, the areas for the eyes and ears are starting to form and kinda look like dimples. Poppyseed is growing like crazy and the placenta is working on becoming formed so it can take over the yolk sak. I have two apps and learn more and more about prenatal development every week. It's amazing the way my body is working to create another little baby. August seems like such a far far far time away.
The questions that I usually get are:
1. How are you feeling? Well, I am EXHAUSTED. I am tired all the time. I could go to bed at like 7pm and still be exhausted in the morning. I am fighting a little bit of nausousness. I haven't vomited but I gag all day through out the day. I am incessantly hungry and cannot get enough of banana peppers or jalepeno peppers.
2. What does your WLS Surgeon say? Well, he's not too happy. I wasn't supposed to try until January and I mean, we're almost there, but here I am six weeks pregnant. The nutritionist said that I should continue to lose weight throughout my pregnancy which makes me nervous. So, I consulted two other nutritionists that said just the opposite. I should gain at least 15 pounds. I should also consider adding complex carbs like fruit and whole grains to help with the lack of energy. And I have done that. I want a safe pregnancy. A safe pregnancy isn't going to have me gaining back all 156 pounds, but it should have me gain some for the baby.
So, what's next for the Mullers? Dr. Reshef wants to do another ultrasound to ensure that this is a healthy pregnancy in two weeks on the 31st. Then, he said I will graduate to an OB. I've already made an appointment with the OB. I've chosen Dr. Henslee. I have the preliminary appointment on the 30th with his office to have some OB education and lab work ups etc..
So, right now, I'm asking for prayers for a safe and healthy pregnancy. We need them.
I also want to take this time to say that we are completely moved and overwhelmed by the response on Facebook and Instagram. We are so blessed to have so many friends and family that support us and love us through our trials and our victories. Thank you for your prayers and your encouragement and kind words. Keep them coming! We need them. We need you. Thank you for being a part of our lives!
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
Moments with the Mullers: The weeks between Christmas and Thanksgiving are t...
Moments with the Mullers: The weeks between Christmas and Thanksgiving are t...: Pounds lost this Week: 0 Pounds Pounds lost Since Surgery: 114 Pounds Pounds lost overall: 156 Pounds Pounds to GO until GOAL:...
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)