Today was the pre-op diet class. It's officially real kids. I'm starting to get nervous. I was warned about this: these feelings of doubt and I'm pre-warned about buyers remorse in the first few weeks. But I can do this. I am determined. I am strong. I'm just having a weak moment when hit with all of this information.
The first thing they talk about is the importance of hydration. Did you know that when you think you're hungry, you may not be hungry but thirsty instead. The body response is sometimes the same. Anyways, hydration is the most important part of this surgery recover/life change. I should get at least 64 ounces of liquids but no less than 96. I've struggled with this during this pre-surgery weight loss period. I get busy and I honestly do not think about hydration. But no more, I've got to make time and take the time to sip. I am thinking about getting a Camelbak bottle. It aids in sipping fluids and not gulping like I do now. Water really is an important key to weight loss. It aids in body function, appetite suppression, metabolism, and other issues like getting rid of constipation. And I don't have to drink just plain water towards my 96. In fact, 24-32 ounces of that should be something with electrolites like PoweradeZero (which I LOVE). I can have decaf cofee and tea, flavored waters, diet V8, Ocean Spray Diet Cranberry or Orange Citrus Spray, broths chicken, veggie or beef, and of course my favs sugar free Jell-O and popsicles. I have choices that don't involve just plain ol' water, but I enjoy glasses of those as well. Dehydration can be serious for me after the surgery. I really have to learn to take care of myself. So, if you see me after January 28th, ask me if I'm close to my 96.... There are some restrictions like not gulping which I already mentioned, no eating and drinking at the same time, wait one hour after meals before drinking and of course no carbonated beverages. I haven't had a pop since May 2013 so we're good on that one!
Next she went over the pre-op day before surgery diet instructions again. It was reiterated that I should get as much liquids as possible the day before surgery. They have to be clear liquids such as broths, water, orange, yellow or green PoweradeZero, and sugar free jello and popsicles. They cannot be red, blue or purple because those colors can dye the insides of your GI tract. I'm nervous about this because I'm so worried that I will hungry to the point of starvation, but I can do it. We have decided to stay in OKC the night before so that we don't have to get up at the crack of dawn and rush up there. We are going to group to the night before because I want to hear about those shoes, but we are also staying at a hotel with a pool so I can relax and maybe even do a little excercising so that I will sleep good and keep my mind on some positives.
Next she went over the different stages of the diet. Stage 1 is a 2 week liquid diet. This including the clear liquid hydraion diet as well as some protein suppliments like the high protein soups, drinks, pudding, and shakes. I think I might buy some soups on Monday because they say the warm things help sooth the stomach. I also cannot take any vitamins for two weeks.
The 2nd stage is the soft protein foods stage. Only 3 meals per day, no snacking. I also have to take small bites like the size of the eraser on the pencil. They also want you to try new foods one at a time and in small amounts. They warned us that food intolerances are common. Just because I love a food or drink now, I may not after surgery. It would wonderful if I developed an intolerance for fried foods, sugar and all that other banned stuff! The first week of stage 2, I am allowed, light or reduced fat cheese, plain creek yogurt, eggs, refried beans, and modified tuna/chicken salad (meat & condiment only). She suggested you try it in that order to help build up your tolerance for food. The 2nd step of stage 2 includes eggs, whole beans, skinless dark meat poultry, canned meat without condiments, deli meats that are shaved, fish, and tofu. She suggested that we try many rubs, herbs and spices to your food so that you don't get tired of the food. She also said that it common that I might like the spicier food after. Looking forward to that.
The third and final stage is called the lifetime stage. Because it's the last stage for a lifetime. It's basically intergrating stage 2's rules such as no snacking, 3 small meals per day with the diet I'm on now. Proteins and veggies. She recommended that you consiciously eat not while watching tv or working so you can really focus on your pouch and not get too full. She said that we should be nice to our pouch. She explained that our new stomachs is like a funnel. Which is why you can't eat and drink at the same time. The goal is to keep your pouch full so that your hunger is kept at a minimum. So think of a funnel, if you chew chicken and spit it out and then pour water on it, it's going to go down the funnel. It's easier to look at the picture, but makes sense to me.
Then she explained the new vitamin regiment to us. Of course I have to have a multivitamin; however, I can no longer have the tablets. They have to be chewable, capsule or liquid. I will also have to take a iron supplement, calcium citrate, Vitamin B12, and probiotic. I can't start taking these vitamins until 2 weeks after the surgery. I haven't shopped around for vitamins or decided which type I want to take. I need to do a little more research.
Next was a section over alcohol. I cannot have alcohol for at least 6 to 12 months. Why? Because right now, it takes my body 20 - 30 minutes to fill the effects and for it to hit my blood stream. After surgery, it will take 5 minutes. They call it the cheap date effect. I also need to watch the mixer drinks such as OJ, Red Bull, etc.. It's a small sacrifice, but I've given up Dr. Pepper & Sweet Tea, so this is most definelty doable since I don't drink but 3 or 4 times a year.
Next she went over a segment called "Special Topics." This is the part that kinda jolted me. Dumping syndrome is real and she explained it like explosive diarrhea. High fat (fried foods) high sugar (cakes, pies, ice cream) will give me this and it can last for 15 minutes up to 2 hours. Another "scary" complication is frothing. This one freaks me out too and cannot be caused by eating the wrong things. This is caused by mucous that collects in the pouch during the healng process and then this causes clear/frothy vomiting; however, drinking the warm soups/fluids can be helpful to breaking up the mucous. The final complication that scares me is the hair thinning/loss. As some of you know, my hair and eyes are the only attribute that I find beautiful about myself. So, the thought of losing my hair is scaring me. She said that some people benefit from biotin and other vitamins but they are not clinically proven to help, so I don't know.
What I am nervous about? I can't really explain but I guess the way to sum it is up is I'm afraid of failing. I'm not afraid of the pain or dying or the fight ahead. I'm afraid that I've wasted $10,167 on this surgery only to fail because I'm addicted to food. Tonight, I honestly was a little bummed about not having bread again or nachos or a cheeseburger. Honestly, it scares me that I'm that addicted to food that I will miss it. I understand it's psychological and I have done a good job of having the will power, but now that surgery is just 6 days away, I'm scared I will mess this all up. I'm scared that it won't work and all this work will be for not.
I just need prayers. I need prayer for patience, comfort, and healing. So for the next couple of days, I'm going to continue my diet, spend time with my family, exercise and rest to prepare for this life change.
Thank you all for reading. I may post on Monday at the hotel but I'm defintely going to try to post at the hospital. It just depends on how loopy I am afterwards. So, if I do post and it's crazy sounding, it's the the anesthesia. So, anyways, I hope you all enjoy my novel and I look forward to seeing your support because it really does keep me going!
God bless you!!
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Moments with the Mullers: Can't help it but I'm really proud of myself.
Moments with the Mullers: Can't help it but I'm really proud of myself.: I really can't help it but I've never been so proud of myself. For those of you know me, you know that I'm really hard on myself...
Can't help it but I'm really proud of myself.
I really can't help it but I've never been so proud of myself. For those of you know me, you know that I'm really hard on myself most of the time but I just want you to know that I was I lost two more pounds than I needed to for my weight loss goal! I freaking did it! It wasn't easy and there were moments of weakness but I worked really hard. I truly am proud of myself. I've learned some things about myself that people tell but I've never really believed. I'm a pretty strong person. I've been hit with somethings and worked through it. I'm also pretty determined. I can get things done. I'm really glad that this new found confidence is coming at the same time as the surgery. I know the road ahead isn't going to be easy and I'm going to need all of the confidence and support that I can get.
Now, on to the update portion. My appointment was on Thursday at 3:00pm. I might have said this before, but I don't eat on weigh in days. So, someone who is used to eating 4 times a day, was starving! Anyways, I was so excited when I weighed in that I hardly contain it. Even though I weigh every week, I still worry. So, Dr. B was super pumped too! I had to fill out some paperwork. The first was a long list that was my consent to surgery. On this list was a four page list of possible complications. I read like the first have page and stopped because they were kinda freaking me out. So, I skimmed the next three pages until the complication "Complications in future pregnancies" came on the list. We all know this is why I am doing this so I asked Dr. B what this meant. His answer was that now that I'm not eating all of this bad stuff, I may not get all of the vitamins I need. Which kind made me laugh. Bad stuff have vitamins too?! Anyways, he said that as long as I take all of the necessary vitamins when I'm pregnant (pre-natal, B12 shot, etc..) that I should have a very health pregnancy. There's no reason why not. I just to do what the physician's say when I get pregnant and make sure that I use a WeightWise nutritionist so that I can can a healthy preganancy weight and then again so I can the weight off after pregnancy. That answer was good enough for me so I signed on the dotted line with my consent. Next, I had to go through the anesthesia consent that asked a bunch of medical questions blah blah blah. So, I should be fine. The only other thing that Dr. B warned me about is that will all of the gas and liquid during surgery, I will weigh more post-op than I did pre-op. He told me that he was proud of all my hard work and thanked me for being such a cooperative patient. And hugged me and patted Johnathan on the butt. I still laugh when I think about it.
Speaking of Johnathan, I have no bigger supporter than my husband. He has ate all of the same things with me and went to the gym with me all without complaining. He has told me every day what a wonderful job that I am doing and stood beside me as I griped and complained about being hungry and whining about not wanting to go to the gym. He has lost 55 pounds to my 43. I am so proud to call him my husband. He is everything that I have ever dreamed of and more. God sure has blessed me with a husband like him. When you see him, please tell him what a wonderful job he has done!
Next, the lab came in and took some blood to do some pre-op testing. They are testing for my blood count and the other basic stuff including my calcium which we all know was dangerously low. If my blood count is low, then my surgery is off but I'm not aniticipating anything wrong with that. If my calcium is low then I just continue taking prescription calcium until they are back to normal.
Finally, my Patient Advocate came in to give me pre-op instructions. Summitt Medical Center will notify me a few days before my surgery to let me know what time to come in. I think we are deciding whether or not to stay in OKC overnight on Monday. There is a group that I'm interested in attending. It's about workout shoes. There's a store in OKC that measures your feet to see what ttype of workout shoe is best for your feet. It sounds pretty interesting and we all know how much I love group (insert sarcasm here). Anyways, we are still in discussion about it. At midnight on the 27th, I can't eat and only drink clear liquids. I'm kinda nervous about it because I'm working and I'm worried about smelling food and being miserable, but I have a great team that surrounds me and I know I have the support that I will need. I also have to shower the day/night before and the day of the surgery and use some special soap. It starts with an H and they sell it at Walgreens or Walmart. Anyway, I have to wash my entire belly including my bellybutton with this soap. I also need to drink as much fluid as possible to get me ready for surgery. I only had one final question: Can I wear my own PJs. And the answer is yes. I can pick out my own so I'm going to get a couple of new pairs of cute ones!
It's so close that I have a range of different emotions. I'm excited and scared. I'm ready for it to be over;however, I'm not excited about the discomforts that I am sure to face.
Another plus side is that I actually know quite a few people who have had this surgery and had great success with it. I've heard a few "horror" stories but mostly things have gone great with people. I've had questions answers and recieved both good and bad advice. Who knows, maybe a year or so from now this blog will become a pregnancy blog and then a parenting blog. There are still so many possibilities.
I go back on Wednesday to a Post-Op diet class. I will learn about the different phases from liquid to soft food to real food. I will blog all about it. Promise :).
For now, like always, just add us to our prayer list. I know that at times I can get a little scared and even though he won't admit it, I know that Johnathan is a little nervous. I've made a few "life insurance" jokes and he is starting to get aggrevated at them. Anyways, just keep us in your prayers and think about us. Oh, and I will only be in the hospital overnight but everyone is welcome to drop by. I just ask that you not send goodie bags with candy to the hospital (obviously).
Thanks for reading and look forward to writing the next one!
Now, on to the update portion. My appointment was on Thursday at 3:00pm. I might have said this before, but I don't eat on weigh in days. So, someone who is used to eating 4 times a day, was starving! Anyways, I was so excited when I weighed in that I hardly contain it. Even though I weigh every week, I still worry. So, Dr. B was super pumped too! I had to fill out some paperwork. The first was a long list that was my consent to surgery. On this list was a four page list of possible complications. I read like the first have page and stopped because they were kinda freaking me out. So, I skimmed the next three pages until the complication "Complications in future pregnancies" came on the list. We all know this is why I am doing this so I asked Dr. B what this meant. His answer was that now that I'm not eating all of this bad stuff, I may not get all of the vitamins I need. Which kind made me laugh. Bad stuff have vitamins too?! Anyways, he said that as long as I take all of the necessary vitamins when I'm pregnant (pre-natal, B12 shot, etc..) that I should have a very health pregnancy. There's no reason why not. I just to do what the physician's say when I get pregnant and make sure that I use a WeightWise nutritionist so that I can can a healthy preganancy weight and then again so I can the weight off after pregnancy. That answer was good enough for me so I signed on the dotted line with my consent. Next, I had to go through the anesthesia consent that asked a bunch of medical questions blah blah blah. So, I should be fine. The only other thing that Dr. B warned me about is that will all of the gas and liquid during surgery, I will weigh more post-op than I did pre-op. He told me that he was proud of all my hard work and thanked me for being such a cooperative patient. And hugged me and patted Johnathan on the butt. I still laugh when I think about it.
Speaking of Johnathan, I have no bigger supporter than my husband. He has ate all of the same things with me and went to the gym with me all without complaining. He has told me every day what a wonderful job that I am doing and stood beside me as I griped and complained about being hungry and whining about not wanting to go to the gym. He has lost 55 pounds to my 43. I am so proud to call him my husband. He is everything that I have ever dreamed of and more. God sure has blessed me with a husband like him. When you see him, please tell him what a wonderful job he has done!
Next, the lab came in and took some blood to do some pre-op testing. They are testing for my blood count and the other basic stuff including my calcium which we all know was dangerously low. If my blood count is low, then my surgery is off but I'm not aniticipating anything wrong with that. If my calcium is low then I just continue taking prescription calcium until they are back to normal.
Finally, my Patient Advocate came in to give me pre-op instructions. Summitt Medical Center will notify me a few days before my surgery to let me know what time to come in. I think we are deciding whether or not to stay in OKC overnight on Monday. There is a group that I'm interested in attending. It's about workout shoes. There's a store in OKC that measures your feet to see what ttype of workout shoe is best for your feet. It sounds pretty interesting and we all know how much I love group (insert sarcasm here). Anyways, we are still in discussion about it. At midnight on the 27th, I can't eat and only drink clear liquids. I'm kinda nervous about it because I'm working and I'm worried about smelling food and being miserable, but I have a great team that surrounds me and I know I have the support that I will need. I also have to shower the day/night before and the day of the surgery and use some special soap. It starts with an H and they sell it at Walgreens or Walmart. Anyway, I have to wash my entire belly including my bellybutton with this soap. I also need to drink as much fluid as possible to get me ready for surgery. I only had one final question: Can I wear my own PJs. And the answer is yes. I can pick out my own so I'm going to get a couple of new pairs of cute ones!
It's so close that I have a range of different emotions. I'm excited and scared. I'm ready for it to be over;however, I'm not excited about the discomforts that I am sure to face.
Another plus side is that I actually know quite a few people who have had this surgery and had great success with it. I've heard a few "horror" stories but mostly things have gone great with people. I've had questions answers and recieved both good and bad advice. Who knows, maybe a year or so from now this blog will become a pregnancy blog and then a parenting blog. There are still so many possibilities.
I go back on Wednesday to a Post-Op diet class. I will learn about the different phases from liquid to soft food to real food. I will blog all about it. Promise :).
For now, like always, just add us to our prayer list. I know that at times I can get a little scared and even though he won't admit it, I know that Johnathan is a little nervous. I've made a few "life insurance" jokes and he is starting to get aggrevated at them. Anyways, just keep us in your prayers and think about us. Oh, and I will only be in the hospital overnight but everyone is welcome to drop by. I just ask that you not send goodie bags with candy to the hospital (obviously).
Thanks for reading and look forward to writing the next one!
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Moments with the Mullers: It's Real Now Folks!
Moments with the Mullers: It's Real Now Folks!: It has been a busy busy couple of weeks here with the Mullers! Family Christmases, work and more work, church activities and so much more! W...
It's Real Now Folks!
It has been a busy busy couple of weeks here with the Mullers! Family Christmases, work and more work, church activities and so much more! We've traveled to Dallas and back and OKC and back and I'm about exhausted.
On Monday, we had yet another doctor's appointment. We went and I weighed in and found out that yes I am only 7 pounds to my goal! Dr. B is more than impressed with the results. I'm really down 35 pounds, but only 27 count (to me they all count, 35 is a big number!) He and I decided on a surgery date of January 28th. He's going to be out of the office and I'm in the middle of some important things and that was a good date to meet both of our schedules. It is officially real. I've paid the money for the surgery and recieved my next three appointments. The first is the pre-op appointment which I will recieve all the pre-op instructions. I've read lots of lots of things on the internet including that I will be on a liquid diet for a week: NEWS FLASH: The internet was wrong. It will probably only be 24-48 hours long. I can handle that. Not gonna lie: I was a little concerned about the pre-op diet. Another question was that I was told that I cannot take any pills. That was also inaccurate. I can continue to take the one I was worried about which was birth control. I will also have to have some lab work done on that day. They told me what it was but honestly, I can't remember and she used the abbreviations so I have no clue what they are :). The next appointment is on January 22nd and that's where I have to attend a post-op diet class to discuss the strict diet that follows surgery. Then the last is the 28th where I have the surgery.
After I met with Dr. B, I met with my dietician. It was okay. I was honest about my Thanksgiving trip cheating (chips, tortillas and queso and a little chocolate at the Hershey factory) and honest about the sickening effect that cheating had on my stomach. She said that obviously I hadn't been cheating too badly because I am so close to goal. It made me feel a little less guilty.
Exercise was not as forgiving. I really really tried to get to the gym, but things have been so crazy that I haven't gotten to go as often as I need to. He really emphasized to make the time. I just wanted to invite him back to my life and see what he can fit in where and with what energy?! But, he is right. I need to prioritize and this should be near the top.
All in all, it was a good visit. It's real now because I actually have a date and instructions. I'm a little excited but starting to get a little scared. What is something goes wrong? What if it doesn't work? What if I'm part of that slim percentage that still is ravenous hungry after the surgery and gain the weight back? I can do this over and over.
Anyways, for now, I'm going to enjoy Christmas and a New Year and prepare for a healthier me. I would say new me, but I don't believe my appearance defines me. I will still be the same, fun-loving, kind-hearting, God-fearing woman that I was raised to be. Just asking for prayers of reassurance and calming and that there are no complications: pre-surgery, surgery or post surgery.
And one finally thing:
From the Muller Household to yours,
Merry Christmas! And Happy New Year!
On Monday, we had yet another doctor's appointment. We went and I weighed in and found out that yes I am only 7 pounds to my goal! Dr. B is more than impressed with the results. I'm really down 35 pounds, but only 27 count (to me they all count, 35 is a big number!) He and I decided on a surgery date of January 28th. He's going to be out of the office and I'm in the middle of some important things and that was a good date to meet both of our schedules. It is officially real. I've paid the money for the surgery and recieved my next three appointments. The first is the pre-op appointment which I will recieve all the pre-op instructions. I've read lots of lots of things on the internet including that I will be on a liquid diet for a week: NEWS FLASH: The internet was wrong. It will probably only be 24-48 hours long. I can handle that. Not gonna lie: I was a little concerned about the pre-op diet. Another question was that I was told that I cannot take any pills. That was also inaccurate. I can continue to take the one I was worried about which was birth control. I will also have to have some lab work done on that day. They told me what it was but honestly, I can't remember and she used the abbreviations so I have no clue what they are :). The next appointment is on January 22nd and that's where I have to attend a post-op diet class to discuss the strict diet that follows surgery. Then the last is the 28th where I have the surgery.
After I met with Dr. B, I met with my dietician. It was okay. I was honest about my Thanksgiving trip cheating (chips, tortillas and queso and a little chocolate at the Hershey factory) and honest about the sickening effect that cheating had on my stomach. She said that obviously I hadn't been cheating too badly because I am so close to goal. It made me feel a little less guilty.
Exercise was not as forgiving. I really really tried to get to the gym, but things have been so crazy that I haven't gotten to go as often as I need to. He really emphasized to make the time. I just wanted to invite him back to my life and see what he can fit in where and with what energy?! But, he is right. I need to prioritize and this should be near the top.
All in all, it was a good visit. It's real now because I actually have a date and instructions. I'm a little excited but starting to get a little scared. What is something goes wrong? What if it doesn't work? What if I'm part of that slim percentage that still is ravenous hungry after the surgery and gain the weight back? I can do this over and over.
Anyways, for now, I'm going to enjoy Christmas and a New Year and prepare for a healthier me. I would say new me, but I don't believe my appearance defines me. I will still be the same, fun-loving, kind-hearting, God-fearing woman that I was raised to be. Just asking for prayers of reassurance and calming and that there are no complications: pre-surgery, surgery or post surgery.
And one finally thing:
From the Muller Household to yours,
Merry Christmas! And Happy New Year!
Friday, November 22, 2013
Moments with the Mullers: Moments with the Mullers: A Whole New Perspective ...
Moments with the Mullers: Moments with the Mullers: A Whole New Perspective ...: Moments with the Mullers: A Whole New Perspective on this WLS thing... : Let me pick this back up by saying that I did start on my new diet ...
4 More Down!!!!
Here's an update from my doc appointment yesterday:
First off, this was my first official weigh in and...drumroll please...I'm down another 4 pounds totaling 16 pounds. I'm half-way there to my pre-weight loss requirement! Whoot Whoot! It's cool if you want to celebrate with me.
I met with exercise first. My excercise specialist is really nice. I've been following his plan except for one thing: The stretches. I am supposed to do them every day; however, I only do them on gym days. And I'm not going to lie, I feel like a freaking idiot when I do them because I'm in the middle of the gym... Anyways, he's pretty happy with my 4 days a week at the gym. Mostly, I just walk on the treadmill, but I've been trying to go evenly to treadmill and to water aerobics because you know I love water aerobics. I also tried cycling. I got about 10 minutes in and gave up. My legs were on FIRE! But i got on the treadmill for another 30 and went about my day. I've come to love my time at the gym. It's a time to de-compress and de-stress. It's a time for me, music and a good book (or Pinterest). Anyways, I just have to continue what I'm doing!
Then I met with the dietician. I've been doing everything that she said to do and guess what it's working. I was honest with her about what I'm eating and told her about my breakdown. The other day, I was picking up dinner up for Michael, Megan and Rylee at KFC. I was pretty pumped because they have grilled chicken and green beans. But of course, they were out. So, I got them dinner (chicken strips, mashed potatoes and gravy & Mac & Cheese). It smelled so good and wanted sooooo bad. I cried all the way from KFC to Wendy's (where I got a cup of chili and a grilled chicken sandwich, sans bread). I didn't give in. Will power prevailed! Score! Anyways, I'm doing pretty good here too!
Next was the appointment with the PA. I was honest about my little ER visit. Last Monday, I went to the ER and was one point away from needing a blood transfusion. It was embarrassing and scary; but I'm okay. No cause for worry. Also, my BP was 145/89 which is high. We are guessing that my BP is up because of the birth control. I've made an appointment with my GYN to discuss other BC options: I'm mainly looking at the patch. If anybody has any experience with the patch, PM me and we'll talk. Anyways, the PA was extremly happy with my results! I showed her my jeans (which have a gap in the back and the side) and she was quick to point out that even though the scale may start to now drop as fast, there will be signs such as bigger clothes, loose rings, and people noticing. I can't see it yet, but other people have said things.
Finally, we had support group. Group isn't a ball of fun, but I get a little out of it. There were two women that day that had babies. What more of a sign do I need??? There was also a woman who lost 185 pounds in 14 months! I want to be the one that gets to say that at group one! They also mentioned before and after photos and I am seriously considering it. Again, any comments on this questions is welcome. Should I or no? I don't know, I'll think about it.
So, in short, things are going GREAT! I'm working hard and making life choices that are going to change everything. It's not easy. Tonight, we went to see Catching Fire (Amazing, by the way) and that Popcorn and Nachos smelled sooooo freaking good. But I got a pickle, some jerky and some water and enjoyed the movie. Little by little the cravings are getting better. I have noticed I'm a little more emotional now-a-days. I'm crying at every little thing. I'm sleeping better and have more energy. I can't wait to get this thing going!
First off, this was my first official weigh in and...drumroll please...I'm down another 4 pounds totaling 16 pounds. I'm half-way there to my pre-weight loss requirement! Whoot Whoot! It's cool if you want to celebrate with me.
I met with exercise first. My excercise specialist is really nice. I've been following his plan except for one thing: The stretches. I am supposed to do them every day; however, I only do them on gym days. And I'm not going to lie, I feel like a freaking idiot when I do them because I'm in the middle of the gym... Anyways, he's pretty happy with my 4 days a week at the gym. Mostly, I just walk on the treadmill, but I've been trying to go evenly to treadmill and to water aerobics because you know I love water aerobics. I also tried cycling. I got about 10 minutes in and gave up. My legs were on FIRE! But i got on the treadmill for another 30 and went about my day. I've come to love my time at the gym. It's a time to de-compress and de-stress. It's a time for me, music and a good book (or Pinterest). Anyways, I just have to continue what I'm doing!
Then I met with the dietician. I've been doing everything that she said to do and guess what it's working. I was honest with her about what I'm eating and told her about my breakdown. The other day, I was picking up dinner up for Michael, Megan and Rylee at KFC. I was pretty pumped because they have grilled chicken and green beans. But of course, they were out. So, I got them dinner (chicken strips, mashed potatoes and gravy & Mac & Cheese). It smelled so good and wanted sooooo bad. I cried all the way from KFC to Wendy's (where I got a cup of chili and a grilled chicken sandwich, sans bread). I didn't give in. Will power prevailed! Score! Anyways, I'm doing pretty good here too!
Next was the appointment with the PA. I was honest about my little ER visit. Last Monday, I went to the ER and was one point away from needing a blood transfusion. It was embarrassing and scary; but I'm okay. No cause for worry. Also, my BP was 145/89 which is high. We are guessing that my BP is up because of the birth control. I've made an appointment with my GYN to discuss other BC options: I'm mainly looking at the patch. If anybody has any experience with the patch, PM me and we'll talk. Anyways, the PA was extremly happy with my results! I showed her my jeans (which have a gap in the back and the side) and she was quick to point out that even though the scale may start to now drop as fast, there will be signs such as bigger clothes, loose rings, and people noticing. I can't see it yet, but other people have said things.
Finally, we had support group. Group isn't a ball of fun, but I get a little out of it. There were two women that day that had babies. What more of a sign do I need??? There was also a woman who lost 185 pounds in 14 months! I want to be the one that gets to say that at group one! They also mentioned before and after photos and I am seriously considering it. Again, any comments on this questions is welcome. Should I or no? I don't know, I'll think about it.
So, in short, things are going GREAT! I'm working hard and making life choices that are going to change everything. It's not easy. Tonight, we went to see Catching Fire (Amazing, by the way) and that Popcorn and Nachos smelled sooooo freaking good. But I got a pickle, some jerky and some water and enjoyed the movie. Little by little the cravings are getting better. I have noticed I'm a little more emotional now-a-days. I'm crying at every little thing. I'm sleeping better and have more energy. I can't wait to get this thing going!
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